New, can't stay clean, feel ashamed
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New, can't stay clean, feel ashamed
Hi all! I want to be sober but can't seem to quit using! I stop using meth and then can't function to accomplish the things that need done daily! I stopped taking 90% of my prescription meds from 3 back surgeries cold turkey and it was hell! So, physical pain is another thing that hinders me daily. I went to a NA meeting last night, met some great people who bought a Basic Text book for me, reached out and called one of the ladies today, read the first chapter and then all of a sudden...I'm on the phone scoring again!! What's wrong with me? How do I tell someone I used again? I feel so ashamed! How do you get though the days in the beginning when you don't have the energy, mind alertness and physical pain to get the daily things done??? Any help would be great! Thank you!
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I don't think you can, but that's ok 
Going to try and post link, fingers crossed 
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Goodmorning Ready and Welcome to the SR family! I am assuming it's opiates or benzos that you are seeking support for? You have come to the right place! We are here for you! Newcomers to recovery is a good place to start. Sky is correct, Substance Abuse Forum is also a good place to get support. The stickies above have good, accurate info too. Keep reading and posting, these people are so caring, they have helped me out when I thought all else was gone. Gentle hugs to you, you are at a safe place. TF
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Welcome to SR
Nothings wrong with you - nothing that the rest of us haven't experienced too.
It's hard to change, especially in the beginning - most of us find we might stumble a time or two.
It's important not to give up tho - and you're not alone here - there's tons of support.
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I went to a NA meeting last night, met some great people who bought a Basic Text book for me, reached out and called one of the ladies today, read the first chapter and then all of a sudden...I'm on the phone scoring again!! What's wrong with me?
It's hard to change, especially in the beginning - most of us find we might stumble a time or two.
It's important not to give up tho - and you're not alone here - there's tons of support.
D
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There wasn't one thing to make sense to me
until I got all that Cr@p or poison out of my
system. That in itself takes time. The first few
months in rehab, I sweated out those poisons
by walking, jogging, swimming or whatever
physical fitness exercises they gave us to do
there.
Besides the physical part of rehab, we were
taught about the different types of addictions
and how they have an affect on our bodies,
minds and those around us.
I listened as they fed me the information, but
at that time, in early recovery, nothing made
sense to me. However, I remain teachable,
willing, openminded to their suggestions and
knowledge they passed on to me.
28 days I was released and still very vunerable
to relapse, but I continued on with my lessons
as I attended a 6 week aftercare program giving
me more time for the what I was being taught
to sink in further.
It doesn't matter how many days, months, years
sobriety we have, we will always be tempted with
people, places or things that will want to destroy
us whether it be drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, and
countless other addictions.
To this day, some 23 yrs sober, I believe that if
I didn't have a program of recovery to live by or
support from others in recovery, id surely be drunk
by now, or crazy or possibly even be dead.
I don't want to die just yet because miracles
in recovery are still being experienced and
I still have a job and responsibility to share
with others that are still struggling with addiction
that there is hope for happiness in recovery like
I have and many other have experienced living
a sober or a clean life.
I went thru the motions for a long time sober
before I finally understood what it truly means
to live a recovery life. Hang on, hold on tighly
to someone in recovery and allow them to
carry you till you are able to stand firmly on
a strong recovery foundation you build for urself.
It's hard to comprehend anything right now, but
in time you will understand. Just wait and see.
until I got all that Cr@p or poison out of my
system. That in itself takes time. The first few
months in rehab, I sweated out those poisons
by walking, jogging, swimming or whatever
physical fitness exercises they gave us to do
there.
Besides the physical part of rehab, we were
taught about the different types of addictions
and how they have an affect on our bodies,
minds and those around us.
I listened as they fed me the information, but
at that time, in early recovery, nothing made
sense to me. However, I remain teachable,
willing, openminded to their suggestions and
knowledge they passed on to me.
28 days I was released and still very vunerable
to relapse, but I continued on with my lessons
as I attended a 6 week aftercare program giving
me more time for the what I was being taught
to sink in further.
It doesn't matter how many days, months, years
sobriety we have, we will always be tempted with
people, places or things that will want to destroy
us whether it be drugs, alcohol, gambling, sex, and
countless other addictions.
To this day, some 23 yrs sober, I believe that if
I didn't have a program of recovery to live by or
support from others in recovery, id surely be drunk
by now, or crazy or possibly even be dead.
I don't want to die just yet because miracles
in recovery are still being experienced and
I still have a job and responsibility to share
with others that are still struggling with addiction
that there is hope for happiness in recovery like
I have and many other have experienced living
a sober or a clean life.
I went thru the motions for a long time sober
before I finally understood what it truly means
to live a recovery life. Hang on, hold on tighly
to someone in recovery and allow them to
carry you till you are able to stand firmly on
a strong recovery foundation you build for urself.
It's hard to comprehend anything right now, but
in time you will understand. Just wait and see.
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