CloudySunshine

I thought I'd write a little something today. I stopped posting because it's hard to post when you go back to the same ole same ole.

I've only started tapering off. doing the 'routine' later so the kids don't witness.

I feel like I'm on a disabled plane. I know if I stay on I will most definitely die. But the fear of jumping to safety is sooo scary. I feel like I want to live but I don't want to be sad and alone like I was before.

I don't have friends. Its just me and beer. So I'm standing that the door of this crippled plane watching the ground get closer.

kadidee

Don't give up, cloudysunshine. You can do this. Why don't you check out the class of November thread? They're still accepting new members.

Skye2

Hang in there - at this stage you CAN stop the plane crashing

MythOfSisyphus

Hang in there, CloudySunshine! You can't cross a wide chasm with two short jumps! So even though it's scary you can do it without the alcohol.

Dee74

Everyone is scared to make that leap.

I was terrified - but for me things got so bad it was leap now or die slowly by degrees over a few years.

I'm glad I jumped. Life is great, I'm free of my addiction - and I rediscovered the real me.
I can look myself in the mirror again and...I'm happy.

You deserve that too Cloudy.

You're not alone here - there's massive support - why not give a try?

CloudySunshine

I never log in from work. I'm bawling right now. I will try to be more positive when it comes to quiting instead of saying 'I cant do it'