Snapping on everyone
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Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: NY
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Snapping on everyone
Hello friends -
I just got back from my 3rd meeting... My 3rd sober day without alcohol.
I haven't told my mother or ANYONE (friends/family) outside of here that I'm in NA or even sober.
I'm snapping on her. I don't want her to know that I'm going to NA because when I kicked opiates (12/3/11) and I'm about to celebrate 2 years!! I got pinned with all these EXPECTATIONS. From her, from my family.
Thursday night, I asked her if she UNDERSTOOD HOW HARD IT WAS TO KICK PILLS AFTER 3 YRS OF ABUSE. I showed her videos... I showed her youtoubes. It didn't work. I ended up crying and telling her I'm alone & she told me she doesn't like the person I am drunk anymore, and she'll "never know who she's gonna get".
Which is VALID.
But I can't keep snapping. I might as well drink & snap.
NO matter which, I'm unbearable.
I'm trying to live with myself and prepare to be with my family next week.
I need some sort of medium.
I'm sorry, I'm so all over the place. I really am.
Please don't give up on me just yet.
I just got back from my 3rd meeting... My 3rd sober day without alcohol.
I haven't told my mother or ANYONE (friends/family) outside of here that I'm in NA or even sober.
I'm snapping on her. I don't want her to know that I'm going to NA because when I kicked opiates (12/3/11) and I'm about to celebrate 2 years!! I got pinned with all these EXPECTATIONS. From her, from my family.
Thursday night, I asked her if she UNDERSTOOD HOW HARD IT WAS TO KICK PILLS AFTER 3 YRS OF ABUSE. I showed her videos... I showed her youtoubes. It didn't work. I ended up crying and telling her I'm alone & she told me she doesn't like the person I am drunk anymore, and she'll "never know who she's gonna get".
Which is VALID.
But I can't keep snapping. I might as well drink & snap.
NO matter which, I'm unbearable.
I'm trying to live with myself and prepare to be with my family next week.
I need some sort of medium.
I'm sorry, I'm so all over the place. I really am.
Please don't give up on me just yet.
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Location: Australia
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Everyone is irritable in the beginning. Everyone.
This is not how the the rest of your life will be - it's temporary - it's a few weeks.
You'll get better. You can get through this
Try thinking about your blessing instead of what's making you uptight and angry.
Start a gratitude journal.
And you're not alone. You have the people at NA, and us here.
Don't be so hard on yourself
D
But I can't keep snapping. I might as well drink & snap.
NO matter which, I'm unbearable.
NO matter which, I'm unbearable.
You'll get better. You can get through this
Try thinking about your blessing instead of what's making you uptight and angry.
Start a gratitude journal.
And you're not alone. You have the people at NA, and us here.
Don't be so hard on yourself
D
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Earth
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Stay sober. This too shall pass. Take deep breaths. Count to 1000. Beat a pillow. Better yet, if you can possibly manage it, next time you feel like snapping walk over and hug her instead. Plan on it. Try it. You can do it. I swear. I've done it.
No one's giving up on you.
No one's giving up on you.
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Join Date: Jun 2009
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Originally Posted by foolsgold66 
Stay sober. This too shall pass. Take deep breaths. Count to 1000. Beat a pillow. Better yet, if you can possibly manage it, next time you feel like snapping walk over and hug her instead. Plan on it. Try it. You can do it. I swear. I've done it.
No one's giving up on you.
No one's giving up on you.
You should try it! Highly recommended.
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Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: NY
Posts: 56
Thank you everyone - I jhad to get that off my chest.
I need to wake up and "do the steps", but I find everyone at NA discussing them, but I don't know where to start. I'm going to try and figure more out about these steps.
I hear ppl say, "I go back to steps 1-3 to help me"
And I want to be able to revert like that too. But thank you for your feedback
And especially letting me know that I am A) NOT ALONE (Most Important) and B) This is in-fact NORMAL.
Love to all <3
I need to wake up and "do the steps", but I find everyone at NA discussing them, but I don't know where to start. I'm going to try and figure more out about these steps.
I hear ppl say, "I go back to steps 1-3 to help me"
And I want to be able to revert like that too. But thank you for your feedback
And especially letting me know that I am A) NOT ALONE (Most Important) and B) This is in-fact NORMAL.
Love to all <3
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