Never say never
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Never say never
I'm coming up for 12 months sober in early December and have had a really bad week this week. I''ve had some health issues and feeling pretty lousy and irritable this week. Today my dog died. He was 12 months old and ran under my car. I killed him and carried him in my arms as he passed away. Tonight more than ever I really want to drink. I really thought the cravings,pain and mental need to drink had gone.How wrong I was. I won't drink but the fact I want to scares me.
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I am so sorry your dog died. 
I know first hand how painful that is. 
You know as well as I do that drinking won't help anything. I'm glad you say you won't drink, but don't be scared of the thoughts of drinking. They are just thoughts and don't have to become actions.
I know first hand how painful that is. 
You know as well as I do that drinking won't help anything. I'm glad you say you won't drink, but don't be scared of the thoughts of drinking. They are just thoughts and don't have to become actions.
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Oh RAL I'm so sorry, that is a tragic thing to happen.
Don't beat yourself up about having thoughts of drinking...it's like a knee jerk reaction to shock and upset. Thoughts are just thoughts...they have no power over you. You came here and posted rather than rushing down the pub or shop. That shows real strength.
Please don't feel responsible for this, it was a tragic accident. My thoughts are with you xxx
Don't beat yourself up about having thoughts of drinking...it's like a knee jerk reaction to shock and upset. Thoughts are just thoughts...they have no power over you. You came here and posted rather than rushing down the pub or shop. That shows real strength.
Please don't feel responsible for this, it was a tragic accident. My thoughts are with you xxx
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Aww RAL that is so awful and sad have you got some friends that you could go and see or they could come visit you? You've done incredibly well getting to nearly a year please don't give in now. I was in the December 12 class with you but caved many times so am now in the November 13 class and back on the hell of day 6 starting over again (and of course its gotten worse each time). Please don't put yourself back to where I am now, thinking of you, big hugs X
have you got some friends that you could go and see or they could come visit you? You've done incredibly well getting to nearly a year please don't give in now. I was in the December 12 class with you but caved many times so am now in the November 13 class and back on the hell of day 6 starting over again (and of course its gotten worse each time). Please don't put yourself back to where I am now, thinking of you, big hugs X
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Oh Ready, I'm so sorry that your are not feeling well and your dog died. We have 3 dogs so I can understand how you must feel. The AV is a terrible monster; it waits until we are weak and our resolve is low and tries to convince you that a drink will make it all go away. But we know better. I am so proud of you for not drinking. Hang in there! Hugs to you xx.
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Oh my ready I'm sooooo soooo very sorry for the tragic day you are having. My heart goes out to you. I'm sure you are distraught, and I know you won't drink over this as well. Please be kind to yourself today sending you a great big hug
you can get through this SR is here to try to ease it as much as we can. Know it's not your fault, stay strong!
All my prayers going out to you.
I'm sooooo soooo very sorry for the tragic day you are having. My heart goes out to you. I'm sure you are distraught, and I know you won't drink over this as well. Please be kind to yourself today sending you a great big hug you can get through this SR is here to try to ease it as much as we can. Know it's not your fault, stay strong! All my prayers going out to you.
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Thank you all so much for your lovely responses.You're all so kind and have made me feel a bit better
Yes theyare just thoughts-thanks for making me see that
Mecanix-you made me smile. My dog never saw me drinking so would def not want me to do that. I got him last December when I'd been sober 3 weeks and he was 6 weeks old. It was his first birthday this week.Too young to die,pointlessly in an accident
Yes theyare just thoughts-thanks for making me see that
Mecanix-you made me smile. My dog never saw me drinking so would def not want me to do that. I got him last December when I'd been sober 3 weeks and he was 6 weeks old. It was his first birthday this week.Too young to die,pointlessly in an accident
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Sending sympathy your way, RAL, for this sad loss. Mecanix has a good point.
Hold on tight. Call a friend, your sponsor (if you're in AA) and/or go to a meeting, stay on SR all night if you need to.
Take good care of yourself.
Hold on tight. Call a friend, your sponsor (if you're in AA) and/or go to a meeting, stay on SR all night if you need to.
Take good care of yourself.
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