winkster26

Tough going. Had some time. Back to Day 1 but not drinking as much and hope to really stop. So many crazy issues and sometimes a few just take away the anxiety and emotional pain...know it is not a long term solution ap planning to work harder and desiring and choosing sobriety, no matter what happens in life.

soberhawk

If you do not give up - you will get there.

Do not beat yourself up - just stop.

least

Never give up! Keep trying til you 'get it right'.

Dee74

welcome back Winkster - whats your plan this time?

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winkster26

I've been connecting with the women of AA. Had a great 7 days then 3 gl wine last night but I am going to a holiday party with sober women from the rooms this evening so I'm back on track!!! This time I know I need to dive into the fellowship as having friends who don't drink will pull me over to that wonderful spirituality I so desire and let go of the spirits that want to destroy me. I'm not beating myself up either this time cuz I'm moving forward no matter what....even if I pick up I'm not going to stop seeking sobriety. It's time. It's really time for me to begin a new life and 2014 will be a good sober year. At least I'm hopeful it will be. Just hard when my partner opened a bottle of red last night. Didn't expect it as who he drinks the white I'm not bothered by that anymore. I'm praying God will keep me sober sometimes one hour at a time. I love,the fellowship this time and this forum as well.

Dee74

I think sober support can really help - call them next time you feel tempted, or post here Winkster

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PurpleKnight

Keep pushing through Winkster!!

Louise82

Really glad that you want to stop Winkster. Yeah, the fellowship of AA has helped me too. Getting the numbers of sober women in the rooms and calling them has really helped, as has going to coffee with them before/after meetings. As my sponsor says, "get in the middle of the bed of AA". It sounds like that's what you're planning to do so that's great.