Ruby2

In the interest of being honest, open wnd willing to make changes in my life I have to let you all know that I am a double winner and I relapsed and am now working on one day at a time.

I think you are all awesome and don't want to mislead anyone. It has been difficult for me because I have to work on me and deal with husband at the same time. Trying to find the strength and courage to most probably separate from him.

Thanks. I am feeling rather small at the moment.

Mountainmanbob

I have been to that same place many times before

it can be a good thing

helps to humble one

it always feels good afterwards when we

repent and pick up the pieces and move on

can be kind of a cleansing process

MM

coraltint

Being honest & trusting your community to welcome you back are not traits of someone who wants to stay addicted.

thank for coming back, good luck!!

JustAGirl1971

Sometimes that's all we can do, Ruby. The key is that you are working. (Two steps forward and all that...) Try not to beat yourself up, just use it to strengthen your resolve to get and stay sober for yourself and your children

Hammer

Feeling rather small is a good thing.

Just checked. Humility is Still on the On The Beam side of the list.

That is of course on the Good Side of things.

I am thinking you are probably right where you should be right now.

Steady as she goes, Mr. Sulu.

Ruby2

Thanks all! I feel so much better that I posted this thread. I am doing better today than I was yesterday. Busy with report card pick up today. I am bragging because my son got all As. Daughters card is later today but as she is in kindergarten I won't see letter grades for her.

It has been a struggle with son as he is ad/hd which I earlier posted. He is coming along. Now I just have to come along with my own self.

BoxinRotz

One day at a time Ruby. That's how we live here and it's working for us. Keep working towards your goal in life!

MsPINKAcres

Breathe in, Breathe out and Focus on the Next Right thing ~

That's what I do when I relapse in my codie insane thinking!!

pink hugs!

Carlotta

Hi Ruby,

I am a double winner too. I hope you are not beating yourself up. Taking it a day at a time is very important if you are struggling. Also (as a fellow double winner), watch out for your codependency. I know that for me it is a major trigger. It is hard to get and stay sober when our loved ones are still active but as you and I know and others on this board can attest to, it can be done.
The holiday season can be really stressful to families and individuals affected by alcoholism and I am glad that you are reaching out
I hope you will join us in the 24 hours club. It is a supportive thread where we commit not to drink or drug for the next 24 hours. http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...join-us-9.html

That's definitely great advice, and I need to follow it too. I am starting to feel the holiday dread and with me it all starts with my codie insane thinking which eventually could lead me to a drink. For double winners, codie relapse can end up in alkie relapse