I could not see
A simple guy making his way
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
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I could not see
I put on one of those cable stations for music. My new apartment has no CD player or radio. I heard a song from ago. I danced a little and played with the cats. Smiled and we had fun. Lol or I had fun. Henry looked at me strange. He's the cat. Chuckie with typical innocence. He's a cat too.
And It struck me.
Since December last year... Heck even earlier... I had not expressed myself. I tried hard to ignore any emotion or feeling. I did not deserve it. Nope. Not even to move to music. I stood still.
I have... Had... Been in survival mode. I could not see it until I felt it today just how much I shut down.
This is no sob story. It's no cry for help. I have exclaimed and cried for those things. But this is singular in thought.
To feel again after it all.
That's a blessing.
A deep breath.
A gift.
And It struck me.
Since December last year... Heck even earlier... I had not expressed myself. I tried hard to ignore any emotion or feeling. I did not deserve it. Nope. Not even to move to music. I stood still.
I have... Had... Been in survival mode. I could not see it until I felt it today just how much I shut down.
This is no sob story. It's no cry for help. I have exclaimed and cried for those things. But this is singular in thought.
To feel again after it all.
That's a blessing.
A deep breath.
A gift.
Very glad to hear your emotions are expressing themselves again Member
Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: State of Acceptance
Posts: 756
Hey Weasel!
Cannot agree with you more - To feel again is a great blessing indeed! And yet another great benefit of sobriety!!!
(between you and me... I got the best of Donna Summer on right now -- It is great cleaning music!!!)
Cannot agree with you more - To feel again is a great blessing indeed! And yet another great benefit of sobriety!!!
(between you and me... I got the best of Donna Summer on right now -- It is great cleaning music!!!)
Sober since March 21, 2013
Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Houston, Texas
Posts: 262
Great post Weasel!
First one I read this morning.
I just got up. Fed my kid (dog) breakfast, went downstairs to open some windows, feeling clear-headed and just thankful for today.
Was thinking about how long it had been since I felt like I was doing anything except just existing, and WHAM, there is your post on SR.
Perfect timing.
Thank you Weasel!
First one I read this morning.
I just got up. Fed my kid (dog) breakfast, went downstairs to open some windows, feeling clear-headed and just thankful for today.
Was thinking about how long it had been since I felt like I was doing anything except just existing, and WHAM, there is your post on SR.
Perfect timing.
Thank you Weasel!
A simple guy making his way
Thread Starter
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
Posts: 7,867
Pt and texasM... Glad you got something from the post. It really struck me yesterday. I am so grateful to feel again. I am trying to not go with things as I do restart the engines so I don't trip myself up. But dancing with the cats definitely felt good. And I really hope I looked silly doing it!
And thanks to everyone that commented. You support is always a big part of my recovery.
K
And thanks to everyone that commented. You support is always a big part of my recovery.
K
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: St. Paul Minnesota
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Request and dedication going out to Weasel1966. (heard this song on 70's on 70 and thought of this post)
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