readerbaby71

In the last day or two I'm finally able to decompress. I've been ruminating on my life and what I want out of it. I have a lot to do--clean the house, dishes, laundry, etc......yet I just want to eat pizza and watch some Shark Week specials on Netflix. I am so enjoying just relaxing and being alone right now.

I know it''s okay for me to do this but why does it make me feel guilty? We live in a society that is go! go! go! to the extreme, or sit on your ass and do nothing. My father is also very hyper and a go-getter and I've always wanted to be more like him. But I'm not him, I'm me. It's not like I'm really trying to totally zone out--I am just burned out on reading recovery books and talking about my situation, etc......

Thanks for letting me vent!

dandylion

excuse me readerbaby----but, you relax by watching sharks?!!

Please, explain.

dandylion

readerbaby71

Lol, I wanted to thank you for your post but as you know the button's NOT WORKING!!!!

dandylion

readerbaby--you are most welcome.

I had 2 goldfish in a bowl, once. They brought me comfort.

dandylion

Hammer

Goldfish. Sharks.

Fish is fish.

Might go watch a can of Tuna Fish.

As for the go, go, and all the rest, even God took a day off after making the Earth, etc., probably good for us, too.

Seren

Yeah, I always feel guilty when I get a day off and just relax...somehow, I always feel as though I have not done enough to earn it.

dandylion

Seren--this is an attitude that has been learned from someone-somewhere--in your life. And, you internalized it. You internalized a message about your own essential worth.
It is a crummy,m crummy, stupid message, at that.

You were not born like that. You were born deserving--just because you ARE.

Note to yourself: Purge yourself of all negative tapes about self.

I just saying.......

dandylion

Me--I was raised in a culture with the Germanic work ethic up the ying-yang. Fortunately, I have finally achieved a state of urepentent laziness.

Seren

By the way....love the pizza and Shark Week idea! Sounds fun

And yes, I know I learned it from my childhood. I'm the adult child of my untreated ACoA mom. I learned at the feet of a master...