Sasha4

I know I have not been here as much as I usually do.

Got quite a lot on my plate at the moment.

But I have not drunk and nor have I wanted to.

He is leaving me and my daughter tomorrow to move in with his new girlfriend and her 2 children. 2 boys.

Apparently, according to him, his mum and dad and family know.

I have not had a single phone call from his mum, his dad or his sister concerning the situation. I didn't know they knew and it has upset me. We never really got on, but they are still my daughters grand parents and auntie. They must really, really hate me. They never ring anyway, never visit, never help out so I don't know why this has upset me.

My parents and sister still don't know due to all the happy celebrations that have been going on in the last 2 months that I did not want to spoil with my news. Mile stone birthdays for me, my daughter, a new baby in the family etc etc.

A few of my friends know so I can talk to them.

Its not long until christmas.
It will be the new baby's first christmas.
He has his new family now.
I don't want to spoil it.

My daughter has no idea whats happening.
He has said he wants to pretend he is working away from home and will still keep 'dropping in' as he calls it to spend time with her and help out.

I don't know where he will be living when he goes.

I really need you all so very much.
I feel like my world is caving in.
I feel so alone.
I feel scared.

xxxx

doggonecarl

We're here. Be strong for your daughter.

Dee74

You have a lot of people here to lean on Sasha - you're very far from being alone.

I'm sorry for his family's reaction but based on their son and grandson's action, I'm not that surprised Sasha.

You should let your family know too - forget about not spoiling things - by your own admission you feel alone and scared.

It's time to reach out

neferkamichael

Sasha4, my heart goes out to you. So sorry you are going through this. Please just be tuff and hang in there.

Girls Aloud - I'll Stand By You Live At Wembley - YouTube

ScottFromWI

Yes, we are here and I would imagine your family too. They can't help if they don't know though so guy might want to consider reaching out. You don't have to do it all by yourself.

chicory

Sasha,
I's so sorry for your pain. I know this must hurt terribly. I have been there.

Your family would want to know, would want to support you, I would think. Let them be there for you, you would want to do so for them, right?

You will make it through this, even tho it may seem that it will never stop hurting, it will get much better, and you will be alright. you sound like a loving caring woman, a good momma, and you have a treasure right there, to help you get through it all.
and all of us.

thoughts and prayers for you and your sweet girl.

least

We are all here for you.

Hevyn

Sending love out to you Sasha. I hope you'll vent as much as you need to. Please remember the intensity of this pain won't last - it never does. You will move past this sad time and have a new and happy life once again.

soberclover

Please don't feel like you are alone. Fill your life with positive people who positively care about you! Do NOT worry about making things uncomfortable for him and his whatever they are on the other end. Do what is right for you. This guy is no good for you. You will move beyond this and we will be with you

bigsombrero

Don't feel so alone - even though you're all the way over in Europe, you always have a North American friend to lean on. And many others.

Sorry to hear that you're feeling blue, it sounds like you certainly have a good reason. I hope you have some time to rest and build some strength. Your daughter has a wonderful mother and she's proud of you, just like we are!

Carlotta

I am so sorry Sasha
Sending you love and positive thoughts, please hang in there.

Hawkeye13

Hi Sasha;
Also sending you love and positive thoughts.
Do let your family know. They will want to have a chance to be there for you.
Please post often and let us help too.
Hugs to you and your daughter.

MIRecovery

We are here in thoughts and prayers. When you are sober all things are possible. A bad time in your life does not mean a bad life. This too shall pass and when one door closes better ones will open. God does not give us what we want but he does give us what we need. You have many things to be thankful for

Take it a day at a time. Stay strong and sober and post often

Correy

I am really, truly sorry to hear that, Sasha4; I hear / feel your pain.

But, you're much, much stronger than I'm. After my girlfriend left me I relapsed. You, at the other hand, face your fears so bravely that you put me to shame.

So, someone as wonderful and brave as you seem to be, with your angel, your daughter, will for sure find strength to firstly live with pain, and than, bit by bit, live without it. I'm also sure one day, may it be sooner than latter, we will all here be happy with you as much as we are sad with you today.

Good luck!!

Anna

Sasha, I'm really sorry you are going through so much pain.

As others have said, we are here for you, anytime you need to talk.

And, I also think your family would like to know so they could support you and your daughter.

Tetra

I am sorry you are going through such pain.
We are all here for you.
Hugs and prayers,
Tetra x

Fallow

Sasha, just want you to know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your little one.

Its darkest before the dawn.

Skye2

Sasha - you know my feelings on this 'man' s behaviour. I truly think he is doing you a HUGE favour by leaving. You have a brand new life starting and it will be the making of you
Here if you need me Xx

firstymer

Sasha4, we are here for you. Please let us know how things go.

GotGrace

(((Sasha)))) I am so very sorry. I can't imagine all the feelings you must be experiencing. But we are here for you and you can lean on us.

As others have said, tell your family. They will want to know and support you and your little ones I am sure.

Good job staying sober. You are doing everything right.