The view from here ...
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The view from here ...
Hey y'all ,
It's only me
Today i am 2 years and 2 months and 2 days sober.
I've been in the same job for 5 years , managed to keep myself together weekdays rationing my drinking to only 2 bottles of wine a weekday night and then going till blackout and then pass out at the weekend . The horrid sunday trying to only drink my 2 bottles by 6 pm so as to be coherent the next morning … always wanting to push it to the limit … the horrid angst at not being able to let rip till friday saturday …. well i guess i don't need to tell you all .. you know what it's like …
Sooo getting on to my point , my job has become smaller as i have grown these last 2 years .. for the last 20 years it's always occupied me , always something different , lots of puzzles to solve in controls and automation …
With sobriety though comes a whole new level of confidence , of clarity , not just getting through the daily grind but a vision of a career and a life . One man's tiny life in the larger world we are all part of.
The freedom bell is ringing for me in my career , the winds of change emanating from my sobriety are carrying me forwards and upwards , the sun is shining , i smell good clean air , i see opportunity in wide focus, before my focus was extremely limited, blinkered by alcohol and the obsession .
This last couple of months i suddenly found myself confident to push myself to the next level , to really start moving, to not worry about taking a tumble if the job doesn't work out , my skills and professionalism will see me through, career fear has gone, replaced by a butterfly excitement and wonder at what will happen next.
Might be good, might be bad, i'll deal with it regardless, One day at a time, in freedom,
This is my experience today, maybe something like this will happen to you or may already, or something equally cool .
Stick with sobriety, learn to live in glorious freedom
Bestwishes, m
It's only me
Today i am 2 years and 2 months and 2 days sober.
I've been in the same job for 5 years , managed to keep myself together weekdays rationing my drinking to only 2 bottles of wine a weekday night and then going till blackout and then pass out at the weekend . The horrid sunday trying to only drink my 2 bottles by 6 pm so as to be coherent the next morning … always wanting to push it to the limit … the horrid angst at not being able to let rip till friday saturday …. well i guess i don't need to tell you all .. you know what it's like …
Sooo getting on to my point , my job has become smaller as i have grown these last 2 years .. for the last 20 years it's always occupied me , always something different , lots of puzzles to solve in controls and automation …
With sobriety though comes a whole new level of confidence , of clarity , not just getting through the daily grind but a vision of a career and a life . One man's tiny life in the larger world we are all part of.
The freedom bell is ringing for me in my career , the winds of change emanating from my sobriety are carrying me forwards and upwards , the sun is shining , i smell good clean air , i see opportunity in wide focus, before my focus was extremely limited, blinkered by alcohol and the obsession .
This last couple of months i suddenly found myself confident to push myself to the next level , to really start moving, to not worry about taking a tumble if the job doesn't work out , my skills and professionalism will see me through, career fear has gone, replaced by a butterfly excitement and wonder at what will happen next.
Might be good, might be bad, i'll deal with it regardless, One day at a time, in freedom,
This is my experience today, maybe something like this will happen to you or may already, or something equally cool .
Stick with sobriety, learn to live in glorious freedom
Bestwishes, m
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Absolutely inspirational, mecanix. Humble. Powerful. Eloquent. Grounded. Enlightened. Doable. Exciting. Progressive. All these thoughts come to mind when reading your post of your efforts and success of the last 2 years 2 months 2 days living sober and your steadfast determinations for the next wholly earned freedoms in your new life.
AWESOME!!
AWESOME!!
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