27 year old, veteran drinker and veteran quitter...
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27 year old, veteran drinker and veteran quitter...
Hello, my name is Maggie..
The website is encouraging me to make a first post to this thread, and I am taking this next attempt at total abstinence seriously so I felt I should introduce myself.
I say veteran drinker because that's how I feel, and at 27 yrs old I've been drinking heavily for 10.
I am unable to count the number of times I have attempted to quit. I am unable to count the number of times I claimed "this is it, I am finished drinking."
My life continues to deteriorate, the amount I drink and the frequency has increased dramatically over a short period of time ( over the last year ). I prefer to stay isolated most of the time and I have allowed friendships and relationships with family members to starve.
I've put my life in danger numerous times, I've lost my liscence and my car, people no longer trust me, I've lost the best job I've ever had, I'm 5 thousand dollars in debt, my looks are suffering. I am unhappy.
I am a smart woman. I know the dangers of binge drinking, alcoholism, long term affects, affects on the brain etc.. I've been to a 21 day treatment facility, over the years I've been to dozens of a.a meetings (i no longer attend) Many times I have admitted that I'm an alcoholic... I know it's possible I suffer from some sort of mild depression...
Anyways, I don't want to make this too long. I guess I'm just trying to say that I don't want to be in any form of denial anymore. After 3 days or a week of sobriety I don't want to blow it just because I feel the discomfort of withdrawal... After 46 days of sobriety I don't want to blow it because I feel like I'm "cured now".
Thanks for reading,
Maggie
The website is encouraging me to make a first post to this thread, and I am taking this next attempt at total abstinence seriously so I felt I should introduce myself.
I say veteran drinker because that's how I feel, and at 27 yrs old I've been drinking heavily for 10.
I am unable to count the number of times I have attempted to quit. I am unable to count the number of times I claimed "this is it, I am finished drinking."
My life continues to deteriorate, the amount I drink and the frequency has increased dramatically over a short period of time ( over the last year ). I prefer to stay isolated most of the time and I have allowed friendships and relationships with family members to starve.
I've put my life in danger numerous times, I've lost my liscence and my car, people no longer trust me, I've lost the best job I've ever had, I'm 5 thousand dollars in debt, my looks are suffering. I am unhappy.
I am a smart woman. I know the dangers of binge drinking, alcoholism, long term affects, affects on the brain etc.. I've been to a 21 day treatment facility, over the years I've been to dozens of a.a meetings (i no longer attend) Many times I have admitted that I'm an alcoholic... I know it's possible I suffer from some sort of mild depression...
Anyways, I don't want to make this too long. I guess I'm just trying to say that I don't want to be in any form of denial anymore. After 3 days or a week of sobriety I don't want to blow it just because I feel the discomfort of withdrawal... After 46 days of sobriety I don't want to blow it because I feel like I'm "cured now".
Thanks for reading,
Maggie
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Hi Maggie,
I'm new here too and can relate to your situation. I'm addicted to coke and started about a year ago. Business professional and really never did any other drug heavily and thought I had control.
Sitting here today I want to try to stop. Even as a type I left my office early so I can do a couple lines and watch porn. I consider myself very normal and ashamed of this.
I'm new here too and can relate to your situation. I'm addicted to coke and started about a year ago. Business professional and really never did any other drug heavily and thought I had control.
Sitting here today I want to try to stop. Even as a type I left my office early so I can do a couple lines and watch porn. I consider myself very normal and ashamed of this.
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Welcome Maggie! 
I wish I'd reached out for help at 27. Instead, I kept going - trying to manage the amounts I drank. I feel that if I hadn't found SR I would have lost my life. I'm so happy you posted and are ready to get free.
I wish I'd reached out for help at 27. Instead, I kept going - trying to manage the amounts I drank. I feel that if I hadn't found SR I would have lost my life. I'm so happy you posted and are ready to get free.
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Welcome Maggie. This dis-ease we suffer from is NOT self curing even with all the pills available. It seems many think of it as a blip on the road of life, and it can be if it's not fed at all.
"I've been to a 21 day treatment facility, over the years I've been to dozens of a.a meetings (i no longer attend) Many times I have admitted that I'm an alcoholic."
I couldn't start to sober up until I got honest with myself about my drinking and resolve to stop. In the beginning I did a lot of comparing instead of identifying. I stayed on the fringes of AA meetings. Then I became an active member participating in my sobriety for many meetings. Excuses abound but resistance usually end up in jail, institutionalized, dead or staying in the same horrible life style. Continuing our drinking will only result in progressive damages and losses.
BE WELL
"I've been to a 21 day treatment facility, over the years I've been to dozens of a.a meetings (i no longer attend) Many times I have admitted that I'm an alcoholic."
I couldn't start to sober up until I got honest with myself about my drinking and resolve to stop. In the beginning I did a lot of comparing instead of identifying. I stayed on the fringes of AA meetings. Then I became an active member participating in my sobriety for many meetings. Excuses abound but resistance usually end up in jail, institutionalized, dead or staying in the same horrible life style. Continuing our drinking will only result in progressive damages and losses.
BE WELL
Maggie
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Maggie,
I am 28 and have been drinking for 10 also. It was nice to speak to you on chat last night! We can do this and remove alcohol from our lives and improve them! I'd like to share one of the best pieces of advice I've gotten on SR:
"Nothing else bad can happen because of drinking, if you don't drink anymore"
Bad things can still happen, but it's a statement that I take heart and maybe you can think about it if you get tempted again. Stay strong!
-MetalMatt
I am 28 and have been drinking for 10 also. It was nice to speak to you on chat last night! We can do this and remove alcohol from our lives and improve them! I'd like to share one of the best pieces of advice I've gotten on SR:
"Nothing else bad can happen because of drinking, if you don't drink anymore"
Bad things can still happen, but it's a statement that I take heart and maybe you can think about it if you get tempted again. Stay strong!
-MetalMatt
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