Had a bad day
Had a bad day
I know it's been a while since my last post.
I had an awful day today. My (toxic) sister told me that our father died. He did not, but she did it for attention. Freaked me out and drank too much. Dealing with jet lag from work travel. I feel like crap.
I had an awful day today. My (toxic) sister told me that our father died. He did not, but she did it for attention. Freaked me out and drank too much. Dealing with jet lag from work travel. I feel like crap.
Currently looking up AA meetings in my new area. I hope I can find the courage to go.
The sad part is that my father has cancer and not doing well. I just don't know why she would do this. It is so confusing.
The sad part is that my father has cancer and not doing well. I just don't know why she would do this. It is so confusing.
(((christy))) I can only imagine! If you can, you might look into some bereavement counseling. It helped me so much. families get a little wound up during chronic/ terminal illness. There's Life Transition counseling too, your local hospital might be able to give you some names. maybe your sister and you go? It's not a long term counseling, usually about four to six sessions, just to help get over some of the hurdles.
Love from Lenina
Love from Lenina
Hi Christy
I am sorry to hear about your relapse. News such as that would make me head for the bottle as well. It is very sad that your sister would do something like that. She must be in a very dark place right now. I hope you rest easy and recuperate well.
I am sorry to hear about your relapse. News such as that would make me head for the bottle as well. It is very sad that your sister would do something like that. She must be in a very dark place right now. I hope you rest easy and recuperate well.
Thanks all for your words. Right now I am scared to quit and scared to keep drinking. I don't want to have withdrawals like I have had in the past. They are so frightening. I tried to call my sister to get an explanation and she won't talk to me. Not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
Hi SoberChristy;
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I don't think withdrawals will get easier with continued drinking, however. . . and if your Dad is terminally ill, do you think preparing sober would be a better choice?
Take care and best wishes
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I don't think withdrawals will get easier with continued drinking, however. . . and if your Dad is terminally ill, do you think preparing sober would be a better choice?
Take care and best wishes
I'd say it's a good thing your sister doesn't answer. Just because someone is family, doesn't mean they should remain in our lives. I had to get ALL toxic people out of my life, including some family members.
I am so sorry. You have been on my mind a lot lately. I'm glad you haven't talked to your sister - I think she is pathological. You can't be rational with someone with that level if dysfunction.
Do you have a therapist? Can you consider rehab? I don't want to see you spiral any further.
Do you have a therapist? Can you consider rehab? I don't want to see you spiral any further.
Hawkeye13 - That is a very valid point. This is all so ironic as my father is an alcoholic as well. He does not drink when he is in chemotherapy (like now), but I know he was still drinking when he was in remission for a year. We are very similar in many ways it seems. You would think I would learn.
Anna/DoubleDragons - I'm starting to see it best to cut her out. The thing that keeps me coming back is our mother. She wants us to be as close as we once were. We are twins after all. I just don't think I can do it with her in my life.
Renarde - It always comforts me to see your comments in my threads. Rehab and therapy is out of the question right now since I do not have health insurance and am in deep debt. These boards and AA are my only options right now.
Anna/DoubleDragons - I'm starting to see it best to cut her out. The thing that keeps me coming back is our mother. She wants us to be as close as we once were. We are twins after all. I just don't think I can do it with her in my life.
Renarde - It always comforts me to see your comments in my threads. Rehab and therapy is out of the question right now since I do not have health insurance and am in deep debt. These boards and AA are my only options right now.
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