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10-29-2013, 04:05 AM

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Bonnie1

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Bonnie's back

Hello Folks.
After being sober for a good few months I lapsed badly in June. I've carried on since then drinking every day. It's got to the point where I've just had enough and want to put the bottle down again.
I want to become a sober, better, calm person than this messed up 'mess' that I've become.
So here I am back on the forum, making this Day One again.

10-29-2013, 04:17 AM

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jazzfish

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Welcome back!

10-29-2013, 04:19 AM

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Dee74

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welcome back Bonnie

10-29-2013, 04:19 AM

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ChrissieB

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Glad your are back Bonnie, well done on Day 1 x

10-29-2013, 04:22 AM

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hayley86

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Welcome back. Best wishes.

10-29-2013, 04:25 AM

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DoubleDragons

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Welcome back to a better life!

10-29-2013, 04:37 AM

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Bonnie1

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I hope so DD. I don't usually start drinking until about late afternoon, so I can't understand that today Day 1, that its only 11.30am and I'm wanting to take a drink!

10-29-2013, 04:44 AM

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Skye2

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Originally Posted by Bonnie1

I hope so DD. I don't usually start drinking until about late afternoon, so I can't understand that today Day 1, that its only 11.30am and I'm wanting to take a drink!

Hi Bonnie

I think it's like when you go on a diet and all you see is food - it calms down

10-29-2013, 04:48 AM

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Bonnie1

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Thanks Skye. All I can visualise at the moment are rows of wine bottles!

10-29-2013, 04:49 AM

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heath480

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Good to have you back bonnie.

Stay away from that first drink.

10-29-2013, 05:01 AM

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Skye2

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Thanks Skye. All I can visualise at the moment are rows of wine bottles!

Try and imagine them with evil scary faces on them

10-29-2013, 06:19 AM

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Bonnie1

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I'm really starting to panic about later this afternoon. It's absolutely stupid!
I think its becouse I've been through it before and now whats going to happen. The anxiety, not sleeping, sweating etc.
I wish the next few days were over, I really do!

10-29-2013, 10:19 AM

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DoubleDragons

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You also know from experience that those withdrawals pass and after that you feel SOOO much better!

10-29-2013, 01:37 PM

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Zebra1275

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Welcome back.

You relapsed in June, and your relapse essentially lasted 4 months. I don't think you can afford to relapse again.

So what's your plan, how are you going to stay sober now?

For me, I finally gave in and went to AA. I don't agree 100% with everything AA related, but the program and people have helped me.