anyone up? online?
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anyone up? online?
im dsat waiting for the day to start
ie my court appearance to be dealt with
im in court today
i cant sleep
i been up since 4.30
i already been and put fuel in my wifes car
can go to paypoint and pay water/electric bill and phone top up at 7.00
and put fuel in my car, (wife is following me to court once kids taken to school
im still sober
im handling my resentment/anger with neighbours better, a fellow aa member gave me good advice on my big macho ego, and it sank in and felt like a big pressure lifted from my head
so not only this time have i accepted i cant drink safely today, i also accepted my bursts of anger to others is my macho ego
anyone online to chat/reply
i cant get in chat room i never have been able to my computor wont let me, or i cant get it to anyway
dave
ie my court appearance to be dealt with
im in court today
i cant sleep
i been up since 4.30
i already been and put fuel in my wifes car
can go to paypoint and pay water/electric bill and phone top up at 7.00
and put fuel in my car, (wife is following me to court once kids taken to school
im still sober
im handling my resentment/anger with neighbours better, a fellow aa member gave me good advice on my big macho ego, and it sank in and felt like a big pressure lifted from my head
so not only this time have i accepted i cant drink safely today, i also accepted my bursts of anger to others is my macho ego
anyone online to chat/reply
i cant get in chat room i never have been able to my computor wont let me, or i cant get it to anyway
dave
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hopefully senteceing today it wont go to trial, its not too bad a offence its threats to cause criminal damage, but being a angry alcoholic for 20 odd years ive got a lot of history of criminal damage assault drunk dissorder drink driving threats to kill affray the list goes on so im nervous
it took till 3 weeks ago after all this sh!t in my life to accept im alcoholic and cant drink today
it took till just last friday to realise my macho ego
it took till 3 weeks ago after all this sh!t in my life to accept im alcoholic and cant drink today
it took till just last friday to realise my macho ego
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Are you working the AA program? Do you have a sponsor? If so, can anyone from the Fellowship go with you for support? Is it possible to go to an AA meeting before court? You might consider hitting a meeting after court.
Theres many good things in AA. Learning how to clean up the wreckage of our past is one of them. it's very freeing.
Love from Lenina
Theres many good things in AA. Learning how to clean up the wreckage of our past is one of them. it's very freeing.
Love from Lenina
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hey there teardrop im having similar problem dealing with my ego and anger...esp harder now that im sober to manage feelings of rage against certain people...i wish u the est in ur recovery, life, and family. God Bless 
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yeah got aa meeting tonight, got a very good sponsor, im doing a very thourough step 1 with him at moment, my mum is over from france to support me, my dad is coming too and my wife, ive got a solicitor too
ive got lots of aa numbers and had lots of support yesterday from people ive known less than 3 weeks
and yes i certainly am working aa programme now
ive had enough of all the sh!t i get myself into with alcohol
thanks for your support replies guys and girls
ive got lots of aa numbers and had lots of support yesterday from people ive known less than 3 weeks
and yes i certainly am working aa programme now
ive had enough of all the sh!t i get myself into with alcohol
thanks for your support replies guys and girls
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Hey teardrop, hope everything goes ok for you. Sounds like you're stepping up and trying to make positive changes in your life. Keep up the good work. I highly recommend AA, I avoided it like the plague until last week but somehow, i managed to get myself there. I will continue going, it really is a wonderful place. All the best.
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Sounds like you've got a lot of good support around you from family and friends! Good job on starting the Step work! If you're permitted to give a statement pre sentencing, you might mention the progress you're making in AA. Over here, many courts will cut you some slack if you stay actively involved in a 12 Step program.
Good luck to you and please let us know how court went.
love from Lenina
Good luck to you and please let us know how court went.
love from Lenina
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Hi Teardrop...It's only 11pm in SoCal. Sorry you've got so much on your mind. I'm sure you realize that worrying and obsessing about everything won't help in the slightest. I don't know what will happen, but things often work out far, far better than you could believe. Any way to watch a favorite DVD, or pick up a favorite book? (I do know that reading one of my favorites can take my mind off of anything).
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Anger was the number 1 issue for me. I was always angry when I drank. The first few months of sobriety it was hard not to put a drink in my hand when the feeling came. And it came, all the time.
Early sobriety was a process of identifying the anger when it happened, and then using the "pause" tool. Stop, breathe, and then really examine what you are angry about. When I started dissecting the emotion like that I started to learn that I had a lot of unrealistic expectations of others and life in general, and myself, that I had a powerful victim mentality and that I wanted to control every situation I was in.
I had a lot of work to do on myself, and still do!
But, I am amazed to report that with months and months and then years of sobriety, most of the anger, if not all, has totally disappeared from my behavior.
Early sobriety was a process of identifying the anger when it happened, and then using the "pause" tool. Stop, breathe, and then really examine what you are angry about. When I started dissecting the emotion like that I started to learn that I had a lot of unrealistic expectations of others and life in general, and myself, that I had a powerful victim mentality and that I wanted to control every situation I was in.
I had a lot of work to do on myself, and still do!
But, I am amazed to report that with months and months and then years of sobriety, most of the anger, if not all, has totally disappeared from my behavior.
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Sounds like a result. Just don't celebrate it!
On a more serious note that is what I got a while ago. Though it was a 12 month conditional. 4 months later I did some more damage to myself and got in trouble again whilst in a 12 hour blackout. I'm still awaiting the court date/decision. It's either a VERY big fine, Or jail.
On a more serious note that is what I got a while ago. Though it was a 12 month conditional. 4 months later I did some more damage to myself and got in trouble again whilst in a 12 hour blackout. I'm still awaiting the court date/decision. It's either a VERY big fine, Or jail.
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Originally Posted by shauninspain 
Sounds like a result. Just don't celebrate it!
On a more serious note that is what I got a while ago. Though it was a 12 month conditional. 4 months later I did some more damage to myself and got in trouble again whilst in a 12 hour blackout. I'm still awaiting the court date/decision. It's either a VERY big fine, Or jail.
On a more serious note that is what I got a while ago. Though it was a 12 month conditional. 4 months later I did some more damage to myself and got in trouble again whilst in a 12 hour blackout. I'm still awaiting the court date/decision. It's either a VERY big fine, Or jail.
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