Acheleus

Well I have a ling day of teaching and then writing a paper, but I am going to push through and find a way not to panic and stew in my own negativity. This paper is not for a grade so I am happy about that. I want to try and be calm so I can enjoy the moments of my life without letting them pass me by in waves of anxiety. There is nothing I can do about the mistakes I made in the past, so I am working on changing my life by changing how I think. My meds help me take a different view of the world. Today I am working on setting the foundation of my new sober life. Today is an opportunity, not a burden--I am trying to believe this and benefit from it. It feels good not to give up.

least

Congrats on day nine!! Keep on keepin' on.

afloatsober

You sound willing to do whats needed.
Well done you!
Keep the momentum going.
G

Hawkeye13

The tone and hope in your present posts Acheleus has changed so much for the better. You are inspiring the rest of us to keep going too. Thank you for that and all the best.

fishoutawatta

Keep it up, Achelaus! You're doing great!

HeadLump

9 days, Ach? Well, look at you!!!! That's brilliant!

Acheleus

Well now I am at school and my mood just plummeted. I hate being here and I feel like a failure when I am here. I feel like I do not know how to teach.

fishoutawatta

Acheleus, I've "taught" before, too. And I often felt like I didn't know how, so I know that feeling! One thing I've seen on SR a lot, although it hasn't necessarily been put this way is that we have to separate what we do from who we are. You are NOT a failure, and I'll bet your students got more out of the class than you imagine!

Hang in there!

Fishy

JadeSatellite

Don't get down on yourself for making a mistake or saying something wrong. We're all human! Remember, we are our own worst critics. Give yourself a break

Acheleus

Taught and feel better. I had to be observed by a boss so I feel good about how it went. She said I was good, just needed a little more structure during one exercise. Now I have to learn to not freak out before I teach. Working every day to get better. S

fishoutawatta

One day at a time! Someone wise said that once!

Fishy

hayley86

You seem much more positive. I hope things keep improving for you.

Acheleus

Thank you guys. I am making lunch and unwinding. Going to write late into the evening, but I have no idea what to write about.

HeadLump

Just relax, Ach. Inspiration will come

Dee74

way to go on your progress Ach - hope you find an idea

D

Acheleus

Oh my gosh I am home and cannot stop laughing! I feel so loopy and full of loving goodness. This is great, I have a ridiculous grin on my face!

Acheleus

Went for a long walk now I have to write a draft and I do not know what to write about. I am just going to make stuff up.

Kaneda8888

Great to hear Ach ! Keep it going !

CaiHong

Acheleus,
good for you on getting through what could be stressful, being watched and monitored in class sounds like you got through fine.
CaiHong

GotGrace

Ach, I laughed out loud when you said you would just make stuff up. That is how I got my undergraduate degree. Just made stuff up! Not such a bad thing every now and then. Good luck tonight!