trikyriky

I need to hear from you guys . I'm trying to put this last slipup behind me . I'm struggling with anxiety . I'm not using but thinking of it all the time

Mentium

It is worth the wait. It takes time and a bit of patience, but the crapness does subside. Here at 40 plus days I am really beginning to feel the benefits! It is great to be out from under!

Hang in there!

LSC1

Hey Tricky have you got something you can do to distract yourself .. come join us in chat

Sleepless3

I am on day 20, it is getting easier everyday. I think about drinking less often now. I was sick of being hungover all the time.

wakko

Do something good for somone or talk to another alcoholic. The struggle is so worth it

trikyriky

This 1st day is so hard though , its to early to call someone. My mind is racing. Didnt sleep well

Lsc1 , don't have chat on phone , just the lobby

LadyBlue0527

Hi trikyriky,

What are you doing to help yourself not think about it? Chat would be a good place to go. Posting helps but direct contact is good because you're engaged.

You can do this, you know you can.

wakko

TR get out of your head. DO something, anything that involves another human face to face. Go to a meeting, go to church, visit a friend. Bake cookies for the nursing home.

My sponsor told me that I'm not allowed in my head without adult supervision so get out of your head make this world just a little bit better

Twofish

Hey TrikyRiky, Do yourself a favor and stop beating yourself up over this, can you distract your mind? Go for a walk or ride in the car and look at all these beautiful fall leaves? Sounds like you're getting overwhelmed with your AV thoughts. Be strong, talk to us, listen to SR. Take care of your body and mind, like a lot of folks say, breathe.....Hugs! TF

Louise82

It's never too early in the day for an addict to help another addict, Riky. Call your sponsor; he'll be happy to help. Being a sponsor is a 24 hour commitment; he's there to help you.

When I was on day 3 after my last relapse, a sober friend said to me to just wait and wait and wait until things got better, instead of picking up that first drink. She said that she was glad she waited and waited and waited. I'm now 3 months sober and happy to report she was right.

wakko

Anyone that is serious about AA is on call 24/7 If I can keep one alcoholic from drinking today it has been an outstanding day. I think it is pretty much a given that people do not get into trouble on my schedule.

trikyriky

I called got an answering machine , what would they say that could take this pain away
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Louise82

I thought the same thing when people told me to call other alcoholics in my early days. I just thought "how could just making a phone call possibly help me?" But I made calls anyway and just listening to someone who knows what I'm going through because they have the same condition as me really did help.

Do you have anyone else's number you could call? If not, try some of the other suggestions on this thread. There's some really great advice here.

Weasel1966

Ricky... You know I used a lot of crack in my day. I understand what level of anxiety you must be feeling. But I want to reassure you that it's possible to break free.

I am typing this as a testimonial to that fact.

Stay strong my friend. You will find your way. You are not so lost. It just feels that way.

Ken

wakko

No matter how far down the scale we have gone we will see how our experience can benefit others that feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. we will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.

These are some of the AA promises.The reason I can offer advice is because I've been where you are and done what you did. When you have a few days of sobriety under your belt you can do exactly the same thing.

trikyriky

That's the thing , i had two weeks and was feeling alone on friday and made the call , it made things better and now a lot worse

Louise82

Yes, as you say Riky, using makes things a lot worse in the long run, no matter how much relief it seems to give us in the short term. Every minute you get further away from this last slip is a minute closer to the anxiety disappearing. Don't make that call to your dealer today.

MidnightBlue

Tricky, my heart goes to you - anxiety is so weary...

Can you see a doc to prescribe something that can easy anxiety attacks while you are early in sobriety and undergo all these physical changes? Is it possible to see a therapist about it - good specialist can be of great help.

Exercising in an anxiety killer - take it from the person who's been anxious most of my life. Take a walk, make your body move -it helps!

If Friday/weekend evenings are "dangerous zone" for you - maybe, plan ahead what to do, and be prepared - schedule the meeting, voluntering activity, anything.

Daily meditation helps as well.

All the above is helping me to beat anxiety.

Make your own "anti-anxiety toolbox" and keep it ready and good to go.

Take one day at a time, take one step in faith. Then another one. Then another. There will be the road. Absolutely.

Take care of yourself.

trikyriky

I won't , most of my anxiety is from the money spent that I didn't have .

SkyeSea

I'm on day 20 too and like Sleepless says, it does get loads easier x