ersatzmatriarch

i started writing again today. not journaling, but actual writing.

it's one of the things i had to let go of as an active drunk. and now, i feel ready to begin again...

only, how do i deal with starting from scratch?! it's hard. i feel like i wasted so much progress and knowledge. it's like i'm back in kindergarten after graduating college!

i'm mostly okay with starting over... it just kinda sucks! like when i started working out again. i had to take baby steps (no weights, taking breaks) because all the strength and stamina i had built up was drowned in the bottom of a wine bottle.

ugh. it's just frustrating, so i thought i'd whine for a moment...

pinkdog

Hi matriarch, Change is hard and frustrating. It sounds like you are making great progress to me. Writing and working out. It will get easier. Well done!

HeadLump

Every day in every way you are getting your life back, Ersatz.

I don't think any experience is truly wasted. Maybe you'll be able to write now from a completely new perspective and with deeper empathy. . . and appreciate those work outs all the more!

least

It's ok to whine. In fact we have an entire thread devoted to whining down in the Café.


I'm glad you've picked up writing again. And yes, you have a new perspective now. Use it to write your story.

Dee74

I hope you'll find that you soon get back into the swing EM
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UnixBer

That sounds really nice and can relate as I have basically the same thing with programming. I used to be an on-the-fly game developer, creating projects out of whim etc. Drinking is what temporarily killed all that, well 95% of it.

It's once more like a new things, but can only get better as long as sobriety remains firm. Good luck and inspiration with your writing.

SkyeSea

Sounds like you're getting back to being the REAL you again and that's fantastic!!