Turning point , day 7
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Turning point , day 7
I'm playing the tape and I know the ending. The way i feel now will not be gone , add to that remorse and having dug even deeper in debt , no , no way. Ain't gonna happen. But still the thought is there and I'm battling as if my life depended on the outcome , it does. I'm on to " It" , I've made a plan for tonight and tomorrow, I've got the good Lord , meetings , numbers , and you guys. Been there done that .....My Ducks are in a row...Let's do this
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Well done for hanging on 
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Congrats on day 7, Riky. We're on the verge of what's going to be a great clean and sober weekend. Do not hesitate to use those numbers. I found that picking up the phone and just talking with someone who understood what I was going through really helped me in the first few weeks.
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Originally Posted by Ptcapote 
Sounds like you've got this.
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Your life does depend on it. Ask God for a day of sobriety, use those numbers and talk to an alcoholic go to a meeting, say thank you, repeat.
This simple formula worked for me and many others.
Every day sober is a successful day! Congratulations
This simple formula worked for me and many others.
Every day sober is a successful day! Congratulations
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TR - trust me, I understand your feelings. What I can tell you is just go minute by minute until you can do hour by hour.
It's not worth it. You smoke one, you're in the mood for "more, more, MORE!!!!!" Lord knows I've been there, got the t-shirts in every damned color.
I promise you, the feelings will lessen the more time you put between you and crack. I don't know what to say to make you believe me but I will tell you this:
I went from being an RN and making really good money to a crackhead. Within a couple of weeks, I was prostituting for money to buy crack. I hated what I was doing, but smoking crack made it more tolerable.
6+ years later, I am STILL dealing with consequences from when I used. The more you keep on using? The worse the consequences.
I promise you, it's not worth it. My best day high doesn't hold a candle to my best day in recovery. I lost loved ones to that shytt.
You haven't yet reached the bottom that I did (homeless, family has given up on you, no job, etc.) but you will if you keep using. I didn't believe it, but it's true.
You deserve a life without this shytt. It's just not worth it. I really don't want to see you ending up like my last bf. Dying in a crack house from pneumonia because that damned crack pipe was worth more than going to a dr.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
It's not worth it. You smoke one, you're in the mood for "more, more, MORE!!!!!" Lord knows I've been there, got the t-shirts in every damned color.
I promise you, the feelings will lessen the more time you put between you and crack. I don't know what to say to make you believe me but I will tell you this:
I went from being an RN and making really good money to a crackhead. Within a couple of weeks, I was prostituting for money to buy crack. I hated what I was doing, but smoking crack made it more tolerable.
6+ years later, I am STILL dealing with consequences from when I used. The more you keep on using? The worse the consequences.
I promise you, it's not worth it. My best day high doesn't hold a candle to my best day in recovery. I lost loved ones to that shytt.
You haven't yet reached the bottom that I did (homeless, family has given up on you, no job, etc.) but you will if you keep using. I didn't believe it, but it's true.
You deserve a life without this shytt. It's just not worth it. I really don't want to see you ending up like my last bf. Dying in a crack house from pneumonia because that damned crack pipe was worth more than going to a dr.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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Ok , I got my pay , no problem . Now just got to deal with the emotional crap. It feels like i just lost my best friend. Not , but thats what it feels like. So I'll just go home and be sad about it. I know it's for the best. That is the way I'll treat it.
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