Brand New Recovering Alcoholic
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Brand New Recovering Alcoholic
Hello SR. I posted here on another account back in '07 when I was overcoming an adderrall addiction, but chose to make a new one to sort of begin a new slate.
I've been drinking for about 4 years. For the first two I drank only a few times a week, but it eventually graduated to nightly or at least five times a week. I started drinking hard liquor but switched to beer in my last year due to cost. Basically I've been getting drunk on very strong malt beer on a nightly basis, sometimes adding other drugs into the mix.
Last tuesday I got drunk and had an emotional crisis. I really wanted to off myself and I had no faith in my future at all, despite having a good job, supportive family, friends, my health, a girlfriend, etc. When I sobered up I decided it was time to quit drinking.
I tapered off last wednesday and took my last drink on Saturday. I've spoken to friends of mine who have gotten out of addiction, and they gave me resources for AA and helped me set up a taper and quit plan. I originally planned to stop today but I decided to start sooner.
I'm going through hell. The only physical withdrawal symptoms I'm experiencing are migraines and shakiness, but mentally my brain is going haywire and my general anxiety is off the charts. It's hard to focus at work and I'm unusually insecure about my girlfriend. I will not drink now, I'll do this, but I hope this doesn't take the two-week long duration of time my friends estimated. I feel I'm going insane.
Anyway, if I maintain this, my sobriety date will be September 23, 2013. Hope I can make myself back home here.
I've been drinking for about 4 years. For the first two I drank only a few times a week, but it eventually graduated to nightly or at least five times a week. I started drinking hard liquor but switched to beer in my last year due to cost. Basically I've been getting drunk on very strong malt beer on a nightly basis, sometimes adding other drugs into the mix.
Last tuesday I got drunk and had an emotional crisis. I really wanted to off myself and I had no faith in my future at all, despite having a good job, supportive family, friends, my health, a girlfriend, etc. When I sobered up I decided it was time to quit drinking.
I tapered off last wednesday and took my last drink on Saturday. I've spoken to friends of mine who have gotten out of addiction, and they gave me resources for AA and helped me set up a taper and quit plan. I originally planned to stop today but I decided to start sooner.
I'm going through hell. The only physical withdrawal symptoms I'm experiencing are migraines and shakiness, but mentally my brain is going haywire and my general anxiety is off the charts. It's hard to focus at work and I'm unusually insecure about my girlfriend. I will not drink now, I'll do this, but I hope this doesn't take the two-week long duration of time my friends estimated. I feel I'm going insane.
Anyway, if I maintain this, my sobriety date will be September 23, 2013. Hope I can make myself back home here.
Last edited by Kyojin; 09-24-2013 at 12:31 AM. Reason: Typo
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Hi and welcome. For me the first three days were awful, very little sleep, shaky, auditory hallucinations, dry heaves, did have some anxiety but kept a lid on it with self-talk. Day 4-7 quite a bit better each day, week 2 just awfully tired but doing generally ok. That was after a 3 day bender on about 4 liters of the hard stuff, you may fare much better from your taper. Hang in there, try to keep a lid on the anxiety, it's just your body adjusting, the whole world didn't go and change on you, it will pass.
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