TruthHurts30

Hello. It has been two weeks since my boyfriend broke up with me. He is an addict- pot, nicotine, alcohol, and painkillers. He admitted to heroin a few times he couldn't get pills. He was the most passionate love of my life and the most destructive. I miss him and I am just trying to get through each day without running back to him. How can I miss someone who hurt me so much? Why do I only remember the good times and forget his mood swings, defensiveness, and screaming at me? Why do I forget his pressures to drink with him when I rarely drink? How do I stop missing the person who destroyed me daily for months?