It's sad because I really wish I didn't care
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It's sad because I really wish I didn't care
I'm 15 days in with little contact with my AH after the last drunken blow-up. I text him if I absolutely must correspond with him. I moved nearly all my belongings out of our bedroom & into the guest room. I get home around 8:30 pm from work & he is usually in his room by then because I told him "I just can't be around you right now & need to clear my head" "So you take care of you & I'll take care of me"
He has stopped drinking on his own, & I know it's just a matter of time before he goes back to drinking because he's never lasted more than 90 days doing it his way.
It's been stressful, I've no appetite, can't sleep well & typically lose weight whenever I'm stressed. I lost 25lbs toward the end of my 1st marriage & went from 130 to 105lbs. Hmmm maybe I'll be able to get back into those jeans if this keeps up...oh yah
AH was outside cutting the grass as I made my way back & forth from the rooms to gather the rest of my things. I looked out at him & began to cry.
Why in Gods name does it have to be this way?!!! I'm so upset & angry & everything else!!!!
My 1st marriage lasted 25 years, no drinking or drugs but found out he cheated for the second time...that I knew of. Later was informed there were others. Maybe that's why he was always so compliant.
And this is why I vow to put my walls back up & my glass will always be 1/2 full. What a dumbass, someone just kick me!!!
He has stopped drinking on his own, & I know it's just a matter of time before he goes back to drinking because he's never lasted more than 90 days doing it his way.
It's been stressful, I've no appetite, can't sleep well & typically lose weight whenever I'm stressed. I lost 25lbs toward the end of my 1st marriage & went from 130 to 105lbs. Hmmm maybe I'll be able to get back into those jeans if this keeps up...oh yah
AH was outside cutting the grass as I made my way back & forth from the rooms to gather the rest of my things. I looked out at him & began to cry.
Why in Gods name does it have to be this way?!!! I'm so upset & angry & everything else!!!!
My 1st marriage lasted 25 years, no drinking or drugs but found out he cheated for the second time...that I knew of. Later was informed there were others. Maybe that's why he was always so compliant.
And this is why I vow to put my walls back up & my glass will always be 1/2 full. What a dumbass, someone just kick me!!!
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I so relate. Have lived out of the guest room more than once. So hard. The longing for companionship. The memories. I also lose all appetite when things are bad. Getting out of the house seems to help. I find myself at the bookstore browsing the self help section lol
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Originally Posted by HHTexas 
I so relate. Have lived out of the guest room more than once. So hard. The longing for companionship. The memories. I also lose all appetite when things are bad. Getting out of the house seems to help. I find myself at the bookstore browsing the self help section lol
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