I think I can...
I think I can...
It's a brand new day and I think I am ready to reset the sobriety counter after my dumb decision of having a glass of wine last night.
I have learned that I am not ready to control my drinking and I probably never will be.
I have learned that wine doesn't taste as good as it used to.
I have learned that the fear of blackouts is more powerful than the fear of being sober.
I have learned that wine does indeed make me more anxious and panicky.
I have learned that I'm human and I make mistakes...and there's no need to punish myself because of that.
I am a little scared though...am I going to be able to succeed this time? I hope so...
I have learned that I am not ready to control my drinking and I probably never will be.
I have learned that wine doesn't taste as good as it used to.
I have learned that the fear of blackouts is more powerful than the fear of being sober.
I have learned that wine does indeed make me more anxious and panicky.
I have learned that I'm human and I make mistakes...and there's no need to punish myself because of that.
I am a little scared though...am I going to be able to succeed this time? I hope so...
JaylaaKent gave me a fantastic advice last night...I will think of alcohol as something I am allergic to...why would I want to drink something that would make me ill and possibly end up killing me right?
that's a lot of learning, some times we do dumb stuff(relapse) that ultimately makes us wiser(learn we can't moderate, realize our fears are made worse with alcohol,etc). good for you, you can do it - thanks for this post, it helped me.
Last night I was really tempted to have "just one glass" of wine. And then I read the advice you got about that and it stopped me.
So...if its any help, just know you aren't alone in your thinking and that advice helped me too. Thank you for that.
So...if its any help, just know you aren't alone in your thinking and that advice helped me too. Thank you for that.
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