Responsability
Responsability
I keep reading stuff like 'I'm sorry this happened to you' or 'don't be so hard on yourself' etc etc when someone has a drink who didn't intend to. I know I've said it to people myself lol but this is what I've realised the past few days and I'm not trying to make anyone see things my way but if you look at it from a different perspective - things don't just 'happen to you' with regards to drinking - it doesn't jump into your hand and throw itself down your throat - you have to consciously decide to take that action. What I'm saying is that if you take some responsibility for your own actions you might get on better. That's all. I mean this in a helpful way - if your a person who's thought process works like mine then you will 'get' this - if not then I'm not here for a debate or who can pull the most psychologically clever sentence out the hat to argue against what I'm saying. I'm just saying lol some people need to stop being so nice to themselves. This demon drink is killing you slowly! And you want to be all sympathetic about it.
My purpose in saying 'Don't be so hard on yourself' or 'Be kind to yourself' is from my own experience. I was horrible to myself when I drank and I would be so hard on myself, that I would turn to drinking again. It was a ridiculous cycle. I would never suggest someone not take responsibility for drinking, but I think that forgiving yourself is essential to recovering.
Most people will at times have weak moments, but we can also be a little thoughtful of whether we are a little prepared when that happens.
It is just not very helpful to feel bad about the past, it is more about how we handle the present.
It is just not very helpful to feel bad about the past, it is more about how we handle the present.
Yeah I definitely say forgive yourself - Ofcourse - being kind to yourself is number one - I don't think anyone should beat their-self up but don't be lackadaisical and blasé about drinking because the nature of the drinker is that any excuse is a good excuse.
Basically don't set yourself up going into abstaining from alcohol with too much room to move lol do you know what I mean? Tough love almost with yourself?
Basically don't set yourself up going into abstaining from alcohol with too much room to move lol do you know what I mean? Tough love almost with yourself?
My purpose in saying 'Don't be so hard on yourself' or 'Be kind to yourself' is from my own experience. I was horrible to myself when I drank and I would be so hard on myself, that I would turn to drinking again. It was a ridiculous cycle. I would never suggest someone not take responsibility for drinking, but I think that forgiving yourself is essential to recovering.
I completely understand what you are saying. I was a "chronic relapser" until one day I "relapsed" and then realized that did not happen to me.... I chose it and I could choose not to do it also.
It is always a choice.
It is always a choice.
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It's definitely a balancing act. Most people coming here initially need lots of support and sympathy and it is right to give it to them. However, I have also seen the unconditional support go so far that people could do no wrong. Even though the latter has typically been the exception, it is something to keep an eye on.
It's definitely a balancing act. Most people coming here initially need lots of support and sympathy and it is right to give it to them. However, I have also seen the unconditional support go so far that people could do no wrong. Even though the latter has typically been the exception, it is something to keep an eye on.
You can have all the support in the world but if you haven't took responsibility for yourself and your actions then it doesn't matter if there's a dam parade of support matching round your house - you won't do it till you decide to.
I understand and your whole post sounds as if you would relate to reading Rational Recovery about AVRT if you've not already
I think if people drink, hate themselves and beat themselves up,then come on here and we do the same to them they'd disappear pretty quickly.For me, it is definietly about personal responsibility but also being kind and helping people start again, not feeling bad.
some people have the amazing ability and manage to post with just the right balance -supportive, kind, not judgmental yet saying it didn't just happen but pick your self up and start again and think about what you'll do differently next time. It's not easy
I think if people drink, hate themselves and beat themselves up,then come on here and we do the same to them they'd disappear pretty quickly.For me, it is definietly about personal responsibility but also being kind and helping people start again, not feeling bad.
some people have the amazing ability and manage to post with just the right balance -supportive, kind, not judgmental yet saying it didn't just happen but pick your self up and start again and think about what you'll do differently next time. It's not easy
This post is in a way me realising myself what I am doing and how it will work for me. If its not resonating with you then - walk away - I'm just saying how I see it maybe if someone reads it and it clicks with them then that's awesome too.
Well, I slipped last Saturday after 8 days, and if not for the support and kindness I got here, I would have finished that open bottle the next night. I did not. I chose it, I did it, and I came right there and admitted it. But the support and encouragement helps me keep going.
I do not come here for support, understanding, ideas on how to keep sober and keep working on it. I appreciate it a great deal.
Just another perspective.
I do not come here for support, understanding, ideas on how to keep sober and keep working on it. I appreciate it a great deal.
Just another perspective.
I understand and your whole post sounds as if you would relate to reading Rational Recovery about AVRT if you've not already
I think if people drink, hate themselves and beat themselves up,then come on here and we do the same to them they'd disappear pretty quickly.For me, it is definietly about personal responsibility but also being kind and helping people start again, not feeling bad.
some people have the amazing ability and manage to post with just the right balance -supportive, kind, not judgmental yet saying it didn't just happen but pick your self up and start again and think about what you'll do differently next time. It's not easy
I think if people drink, hate themselves and beat themselves up,then come on here and we do the same to them they'd disappear pretty quickly.For me, it is definietly about personal responsibility but also being kind and helping people start again, not feeling bad.
some people have the amazing ability and manage to post with just the right balance -supportive, kind, not judgmental yet saying it didn't just happen but pick your self up and start again and think about what you'll do differently next time. It's not easy
Why, essentially why would be the bit where I insert said excuse of trauma etc but trauma doesn't shove that drink down my throat. I do. I consciously decide to inflict MORE pain on myself in the name of said trauma - cos that makes sense. To make a bad life worse by turning into a drunk.
There was time early on when I looked at others that did not get it and it made me feel superior. Maybe I was smarter or quicker. Maybe I had less problems then they did. Maybe I could get over it faster, I did not let my emotions get the best of me like they did. I was doing it! I understood.
I discovered that was far from the truth. What it came down to is I was still selfish. I was wrapped up in myself and it was all about me.
I have seen others that have failed yet I turned away instead of towards them. I don't think compassion was something I ever had. I think it comes naturally for some, not for me, at least it felt that way. It was like I had to work at it. I was so hard and rough for so long that caring for others was something I had to learn all over again or maybe for the first time.
Now that I have been sober for a while and people around me have failed, I feel compassion for them. I want to lift them up the way others lifted me up. Helping them, keeps me sober because it keeps me thinking about others and not just myself. It directs my thinking away from my self centered ego that only cares about what I want or what I need.
I am not great at it yet, but I am making progress. I hope someday I can be as compassionate and sympathetic as others were for me.
I discovered that was far from the truth. What it came down to is I was still selfish. I was wrapped up in myself and it was all about me.
I have seen others that have failed yet I turned away instead of towards them. I don't think compassion was something I ever had. I think it comes naturally for some, not for me, at least it felt that way. It was like I had to work at it. I was so hard and rough for so long that caring for others was something I had to learn all over again or maybe for the first time.
Now that I have been sober for a while and people around me have failed, I feel compassion for them. I want to lift them up the way others lifted me up. Helping them, keeps me sober because it keeps me thinking about others and not just myself. It directs my thinking away from my self centered ego that only cares about what I want or what I need.
I am not great at it yet, but I am making progress. I hope someday I can be as compassionate and sympathetic as others were for me.
There was time early on when I looked at others that did not get it and it made me feel superior. Maybe I was smarter or quicker. Maybe I had less problems then they did. Maybe I could get over it faster, I did not let my emotions get the best of me like they did. I was doing it! I understood.
I discovered that was far from the truth. What it came down to is I was still selfish. I was wrapped up in myself and it was all about me.
I have seen others that have failed yet I turned away instead of towards them. I don't think compassion was something I ever had. I think it comes naturally for some, not for me, at least it felt that way. It was like I had to work at it. I was so hard and rough for so long that caring for others was something I had to learn all over again or maybe for the first time.
Now that I have been sober for a while and people around me have failed, I feel compassion for them. I want to lift them up the way others lifted me up. Helping them, keeps me sober because it keeps me thinking about others and not just myself. It directs my thinking away from my self centered ego that only cares about what I want or what I need.
I am not great at it yet, but I am making progress. I hope someday I can be as compassionate and sympathetic as others were for me.
I discovered that was far from the truth. What it came down to is I was still selfish. I was wrapped up in myself and it was all about me.
I have seen others that have failed yet I turned away instead of towards them. I don't think compassion was something I ever had. I think it comes naturally for some, not for me, at least it felt that way. It was like I had to work at it. I was so hard and rough for so long that caring for others was something I had to learn all over again or maybe for the first time.
Now that I have been sober for a while and people around me have failed, I feel compassion for them. I want to lift them up the way others lifted me up. Helping them, keeps me sober because it keeps me thinking about others and not just myself. It directs my thinking away from my self centered ego that only cares about what I want or what I need.
I am not great at it yet, but I am making progress. I hope someday I can be as compassionate and sympathetic as others were for me.
I absolutely agree that personal responsibility is key
I think you can deliver some straight talking with some compassion tho - after all, we know what it's like....
I know I often 'played down' a relapse, not because I didn't take it seriously but because I was absolutely terrified of how serious it was.
A few kind words in amongst the truth won't hurt IMO.
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I think you can deliver some straight talking with some compassion tho - after all, we know what it's like....
I know I often 'played down' a relapse, not because I didn't take it seriously but because I was absolutely terrified of how serious it was.
A few kind words in amongst the truth won't hurt IMO.
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I'm not saying be brutally honest to anyone's downfall - not at all - I'd never intentionally say something to hurt anyone or bring anyone down - I think as abusers of our own body and minds we do that quite enough to ourselves - I'm simply saying that this isn't all about sympathy and on the other extreme it's not about apathy either but in the middle I guess everyone has to take their own responsibility seriously to help themselves.
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