Emotions
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Emotions
Has anyone experienced their emotions being all over the place in early sobriety? I could be in a positive mood in the morning and then by night my mind does not stop. Constantly thinking and over analyzing, I was just curious if emotion/mood changes get better with time?
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It's very common Strength 
I closed my feelings off for years, squashed them down with booze - removing the booze was like breaking the dam wall...
The floods may rage for a while but you will find your emotional water level again tho - stay with it
I closed my feelings off for years, squashed them down with booze - removing the booze was like breaking the dam wall...
The floods may rage for a while but you will find your emotional water level again tho - stay with it
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Originally Posted by Strength11 
Has anyone experienced their emotions being all over the place in early sobriety? I could be in a positive mood in the morning and then by night my mind does not stop. Constantly thinking and over analyzing, I was just curious if emotion/mood changes get better with time?
All over the place and at every pace. It is a roller coaster. Up the slow steep hill and then racing to the turn to slow again for another hill.
That constant thinking and over analyzing is me to a tee! Throw in some scenario thinking as well while we are at it. From the time my eyes open my mind starts spinning to the point that I have said out loud many times "JUST STOP!".
Now I pray. I just say a prayer and think of a blank white page and it helps. It seems to help me focus and slows down the show.
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Yes! I have been crying a lot. It's been cathartic actually. Grieving for a lot of things done and not done. A toxic pool of shame, guilt and sadness.
Then, this morning I had jury duty. I was late....I didn't sleep well last night, traffic was bad and then I couldn't find a parking space. All my fault and I knew it. I was kicking myself for being so irresponsible - that feeling I used to get the morning after drinking too much.
The lady behind the counter evidently needed to make sure I felt stupid and small, so she reprimanded me, pointing out how late I was, what I missed and asked point blank..."why would you even show up this late?"
I already felt bad....but I just lost it there in the jury room. Ran crying from the room.
In the old days I may have replied snidely, or deflected with a joke. Ah well....who says all the drama needs to be in the courtroom?
Still feeling icky....victimized. Hoping it passes soon. But it really is a rollercoaster!
Then, this morning I had jury duty. I was late....I didn't sleep well last night, traffic was bad and then I couldn't find a parking space. All my fault and I knew it. I was kicking myself for being so irresponsible - that feeling I used to get the morning after drinking too much.
The lady behind the counter evidently needed to make sure I felt stupid and small, so she reprimanded me, pointing out how late I was, what I missed and asked point blank..."why would you even show up this late?"
I already felt bad....but I just lost it there in the jury room. Ran crying from the room.
In the old days I may have replied snidely, or deflected with a joke. Ah well....who says all the drama needs to be in the courtroom?
Still feeling icky....victimized. Hoping it passes soon. But it really is a rollercoaster!
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