Raider

Yup fell off my horse tonight. Made a full 8. Crap. Will change my sober date tomorow. Disappointed in myself.

Dee74

what happened Raider?

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ZeldaFan

Oh no! What happened that made you slip? Not the end of the world by any means. Just time to dust yourself off and get back on the sober road again.

Imabuleva

Do you have a new plan for tomorrow, Raider?

Raider

I don't know. Yesterday was a terrible struggle. Tonight craving started about 6pm. I read, watched a movie, posted on SR, read the Bible. Then at 1030pm, I said enough is enough.

Dee74

maybe that's the time you need to come here raider?

I know it's a struggle and some part of you will really want to give in and drink - but you have fight that part.

it's important not to give up, because the only person you're giving up on yourself, really.

Bookmark these tips for next time you feel that way maybe?

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

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Imabuleva

I've found over the past five days that the best way to fight cravings is to 1. Come to SR and read. 2. Do anything but give in even if it's just sitting quietly in my chair. 3. Drink water, tea, chocolate milk, a virgin cocktail (if that's your thing). Anything to trick your brain into thinking you're giving in. You'd be surprised at how well that can work for the psychological cravings. Physical cravings are different though.

Raider

Dee I saved them. Ima, thank you

kadidee

Raider, hugs to you. Dust yourself off and start fresh. What is your plan for tomorrow?

Dee74

Ima's ideas are good - personally, I wouldn't go for the virgin cocktail myself tho - lots of associations, there...might excite the cravings.

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Imabuleva

Do you have any alcohol left over, Raider? If so, maybe dump it out. I know it was easier for me to dump mine when I was already drinking. And the next day it would have cost me to go buy more, and a reminder that I really am an alcoholic and need to take drastic measures to stop for good.

I ended up dumping the remainder of three 1.75L bottles of whiskey on three separate occasions while drunk before I finally quit going to buy it again the next day. I did so for me and my wallet.

Put a little pressure on yourself right now, and it will be easier to get back on the wagon in the morning.

Imabuleva

Indeed Dee, that works for some people. But if the associations are triggers, nix the virgin cocktails.

LillianGish

Raider.....two words: snack fridge. Mine's filled with yummy alcohol-free drinks and chocolate....fruit, ice cream.

It ain't a diet! But it's helped me this first week especially.

Nuudawn

I'm sorry to hear bout your stumble. It may be too early to ask, but do you think there is something you should have or could have done differently that may have prevented you from picking up?

Raider

Ima - my husband drinks. There is liquor in the house. I don't know the plan for tomorrow. I just am having one drink and crying the whole time. What is with the tears already? I'll deal with tomorrow tomorrow.

ZeldaFan

Raider, I'm heading off to bed and will be sending good and encouraging thoughts your way. Will check in with you tomorrow!

Melina

Hey Raider,

I hope you get some good rest tonight.

I know how excited you are for sobriety. Your enthusiasm comes through in your posts and in the encouragement you give to others. Your voice is important, more important than your AV. You're a great cheerleader and one of us Septembers! I know I want you to finish the month with me, lady!

You've made mention of your faith before. When times get tough for me, I like to have gospel time with Sam Cooke and the Soul Stirrers. If you go on YouTube, search the songs, 'Touch the Hem of His Garment,' and 'Jesus gave me Water.' These songs provide me so much comfort when I'm hurting. I usually play them about 20 times each and think of everything with me and my pains and confusions (physical, mental and spuritual), how great classic gospel is, how amazing the lyrics are, how Sam Cooke had so so much talent and how tragically his life ended due to his addiction.... I never not cry when I do this, it's ultra cleansing, cathartic and comforting.

Hope this helps, I'm sending you hugs and wishing you a wonderful Wednesday.

Best,
Melina

Nuudawn

You're drinking now? Raider...what did you think the drink would give you? You're crying...but you're still going to finish that drink? Why are you certain it will just be one?

What makes you think you can do tomorrow...what you can't do right now?

trikyriky

Hello my friend.

I don't have any advice , just offering my support and encouragement

Truly

Tr

ZeldaFan

Good morning Raider. I hope you are feeling better this morning and are ready to take on the day! We're here for you!