Short term happiness = long term disaster
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Short term happiness = long term disaster
And so ends Day 5 for me. The further away I get from my last drink I find myself minimising the effects of alcohol on my life.
An SR member posted to me the other day...don't remember your last drink instead remember your last drunk. Luckily I keep a journal so I can read some of my last drunks.
Scary but a few include:
- being very drunk and taking sleeping tablets.
- being very drunk and nearly breaking my nose
- being drunk and not getting an opportunity that I am more than qualified and able to do.
I can minimise in my mind but as soon as I read those journal entries I think of all the 'futures' I've messed up just to feel great 'now'.
I can say that I do feel great now and I am sober.
Thank you SR and good luck to everyone on their own particular journey.
I'll check in tomorrow x
An SR member posted to me the other day...don't remember your last drink instead remember your last drunk. Luckily I keep a journal so I can read some of my last drunks.
Scary but a few include:
- being very drunk and taking sleeping tablets.
- being very drunk and nearly breaking my nose
- being drunk and not getting an opportunity that I am more than qualified and able to do.
I can minimise in my mind but as soon as I read those journal entries I think of all the 'futures' I've messed up just to feel great 'now'.
I can say that I do feel great now and I am sober.
Thank you SR and good luck to everyone on their own particular journey.
I'll check in tomorrow x
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Yes, your alcoholic voice is probably screaming at you right now, trying to convince you that since you've gone five days, you don't have a problem (been there myself). Stay strong, it just gets better.
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Caravagio congrats on 5 days!
I think one of the ways SR helps me is that I see the cyclicality of alcoholism. I think there is something in our minds that makes the pain it causes us disappear after very short time, kind of like childbirth. For years I would rush around and get things accomplished when I wasn't drunk or hungover so I could clear the way to tie on one. So when I first got sober and had a few days of sanity, I realized noticed that I felt like I was due for a "reward".
I think knowing that our weakest time comes when we are feeling good and not like crap is a big help to ride out those urges.
I think one of the ways SR helps me is that I see the cyclicality of alcoholism. I think there is something in our minds that makes the pain it causes us disappear after very short time, kind of like childbirth. For years I would rush around and get things accomplished when I wasn't drunk or hungover so I could clear the way to tie on one. So when I first got sober and had a few days of sanity, I realized noticed that I felt like I was due for a "reward".
I think knowing that our weakest time comes when we are feeling good and not like crap is a big help to ride out those urges.
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Congrats on day 5, Caravagio! For me, posting a lot on SR and occasionally going back and reading my old posts has really helped me maintain my sobriety. Sort of like journaling, I guess.
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Great post Caravagio and congratulations on Day 5!
It's such a phenomenon that we all go through, how we minimalize. It's so easy to commit to quitting on the morning after when hungover. The "oh boy, what did I do?" moment. Or after something extreme happening. The hard part and the work comes when that moment has magically erased itself or doesn't seem quite as bad as it did and that drink is looking good. Getting past that first urge is the key and it's worth every single uncomfortable moment when you come out the other side.
It's looks like you have a handle on things
Stay strong, it's all so worth it! Glad that you're here!
It's such a phenomenon that we all go through, how we minimalize. It's so easy to commit to quitting on the morning after when hungover. The "oh boy, what did I do?" moment. Or after something extreme happening. The hard part and the work comes when that moment has magically erased itself or doesn't seem quite as bad as it did and that drink is looking good. Getting past that first urge is the key and it's worth every single uncomfortable moment when you come out the other side.
It's looks like you have a handle on things
Stay strong, it's all so worth it! Glad that you're here!
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