BillyBon3s

SO, I had two months of clean time, and things were starting to turn around, but I got stressed and slipped off the wagon.

I have a problem with all narcotics, Marijuana, XTC, Cocaine, and LSD are my main doc's.

I know that sometimes people slip and fall, but im struggling to let myself be okay with this, and getting back on the wagon.

I have been sober almost a whole day after a month of using again after my relapse.

Advise or suggestions would be amazing.

Thank you.

least

Do you know what made you use again? Do you have support in real life? I hope this can be your last Day One.

Nuudawn

I will echo Least as well. What resources do you have in recovery? And yes, what triggered the relapse? If you look back, was it something simmering for days before it occured?

BillyBon3s

I was stressed about some family problems and I just wanted to make it all stop.

The only resource I have is currently is an outpatient treatment group,but lately it feels like a chore to go instead of actual help.

I know that there are 12 step meeting but everyone I go to seems very "christian" based, even a normal NA meeting, and I am a buddhist/ pagan, so it makes me feel awkward and isolated.

Dee74

welcome BillyBon3s

I think the support we use to stay sober really is secondary to the desire to be sober.

Maybe a good place to start is to look at that 'just wanted to make it all stop' thought and think about how you can deal with things like that better in future?

as long as I saw alcohol as any kind of solution I was really still in trouble...put some time in and see whats around to help you make better decisions in future...

if you feel you need more support, there's a lot of programmes these days, not all of them are 12 step, and many of them offer online meetings.

here's some links to some of the main players:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach

look around for better solutions

D

Soberpotamus

Hi BillyBon3s, sorry to hear about the relapse, but congrats on the decision to get sober again. I can relate to what you've said about the outpatient and 12 step meetings. I felt the same. All I can say is that Dee is right about the need to come to the conclusion that using/drinking can no longer be an option. No matter what. Also, have you thought about individual therapy? It really helped me when I was making the transition from IOP and trying the AA route. When I started to have issues with AA, the therapist came in really handy. Some people find SR alone is enough support. Recovery books help too!