One week sober and then back to Day 1
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One week sober and then back to Day 1
Very disappointed at myself, was going to have one glass of wine. Of course it didnīt work. So back to Day 1 again, in desperate need of support and very ashamed of myself.
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I really thought I could handle it, well obviously I canīt. As for a plan, I will continue keeping busy and excersising. The problem is when I see my boyfriend, he drinks like normal people do, I just need to say no. I donīt think he would mind, probably he would think it is a good idea..
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Hi Victoria. Sorry you are feeling down on yourself.
You mentioned having one glass was your intention...were you hoping to moderate as a future solution? Or did you crave and convince yourself just one would be ok?
At least you know you can do sober. That is at least a positive for you to build on.
You mentioned having one glass was your intention...were you hoping to moderate as a future solution? Or did you crave and convince yourself just one would be ok?
At least you know you can do sober. That is at least a positive for you to build on.
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Croissant, I think I actually was going to drink more but fooled myself by saying one is ok, I knew deep down I canīt handle it. Somehow allowed myself to slip. Not really sure why, as I was feeling so great, was starting to sleep ok, excersising and enjoying my days so much.
A bit scared now, how will I avoid this in the future?
A bit scared now, how will I avoid this in the future?
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Croissant, I think I actually was going to drink more but fooled myself by saying one is ok, I knew deep down I canīt handle it. Somehow allowed myself to slip. Not really sure why, as I was feeling so great, was starting to sleep ok, excersising and enjoying my days so much.
A bit scared now, how will I avoid this in the future?
A bit scared now, how will I avoid this in the future?
On the flip side, even though you feel bad about taking a drink, I feel bad that I haven't relapsed and wonder if its going to sneak up on me. Sorry, that's a long explanation about why I asked.
Please don't feel like you've failed, maybe write down a letter to yourself describing how you feel now and save it for weeks to come when you feel tempted?
Hugs and wishing you that sober feel-good feeling soon. Damn annoying that money can't buy it....we actually have to do the time! xx
Good luck and God Bless
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Victoria,
I have found myself in this position all too often. Thinking that it is a weekday and so of course I can manage just a beer or two as an after hours treat. Everyone else does, right? It just doesn't work for me either. I'm not sure I have come to accept that fact, it is sad to think that I can't just causally drink like others. But then, I don't see most others acting the way I do after a night out of "causal drinking." I'm sending strength your way.
I have found myself in this position all too often. Thinking that it is a weekday and so of course I can manage just a beer or two as an after hours treat. Everyone else does, right? It just doesn't work for me either. I'm not sure I have come to accept that fact, it is sad to think that I can't just causally drink like others. But then, I don't see most others acting the way I do after a night out of "causal drinking." I'm sending strength your way.
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Thanks for your support!
I called a local hotline and got some tools and support, and also the number to a clinic that spezializes in alcohol addiction. If I fall off the wagon once more I will make an appointment.
I will spend lots of time here and write lots of threads...it helps, many thanks again for all the kind comments.
I called a local hotline and got some tools and support, and also the number to a clinic that spezializes in alcohol addiction. If I fall off the wagon once more I will make an appointment.
I will spend lots of time here and write lots of threads...it helps, many thanks again for all the kind comments.
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same exact thing happened to me last week.....I had 14 days sober, was sleeping through the night, no anxiety, feeling great and I decide I can have a glass of wine......that pretty much led to a labor day weekend bender. I felt horrible yesterday.....still have anxiety through the roof and nausea today.....and I just want my sober life back. Why is it so hard to accept that I am not giving up a thing by not drinking? I am only gaining....happiness.......
Don't beat yourself up. You just learned one of the most valuable lessons. There is no such thing as just one glass. Give yourself credit for "getting it". Takes most of us a long time to accept that.
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