Off to the Salt Mines ..
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Off to the Salt Mines ..
Well in an hour or so; still down in the pits so to say .. But good thing is when I get off at 530am; there are no liquor stores open .. So I guess I will make it another day sober ..
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I am trying. Dealing w\ the physical pain is something I have grown accustomed to; it's the emotional that is hitting me the hardest right now. So of course I want to get wasted. I know that would only cause more pain & trouble; but at times, like now I feel like I am fighting a losing battle 
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I often found emotional pain so painful, so scary, and so futile to deal with that instead I found a way to just stuff my feelings.......deep down. And truth is, that worked for a while. Eventually though, it backfired. You can't bury it deep enough and sooner or later, they DO start to bubble up to the surface.
A big part of my recovery now is dealing with "issues" as they come (ideally, before they come!), rather than letting they mass up and having a dozen or more hit me all at the same time.
There IS a way......I've done it and so many more have as well. You can too.
A big part of my recovery now is dealing with "issues" as they come (ideally, before they come!), rather than letting they mass up and having a dozen or more hit me all at the same time.
There IS a way......I've done it and so many more have as well. You can too.
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Every day sober is a victory for us, AW11. Like you said, drinking would only make your emotional pain worse. Hold on to that truth, keep reaching out for help here and wherever else you can and ride through the cravings. You'll feel like you've achieved something good once you come out the other side sober -- because you will have achieved something good.
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Thanx guys; I want\have been reaching out elsewhere to .. But as for professional, I am in limbo while they review my insurance information .. Happens once a year and I can see my Reg Doc and all NP; but can not make any "new" appointments until I get the AOK from Mass. Health :p Crazy system when I finally am ready to accept\ask for help; I can't LOL
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Hi AW. What your going through is a remember when for me and I don't want a repeat performance. During that period it was suggested that I concentrate my thinking to NOT drinking as opposed to thinking about drinking as often the obsession usually only lasts a few minutes. It worked and was used often. BE WELL
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For what it's worth, I burned through a bunch of therapists looking for a "good" one. Finding they were all the same (not ALL, just all the ones I tried), I realized AA might be my only shot for a while.
I didn't like AA at the time......didn't trust the ppl......but there was obviously something good going on there. So, while I continued to seek professional help, I also went back to AA. Whether it was all part of some master plan, I don't know, but it worked out perfectly. I ended up finding some great ppl in some great meetings. I also ended up finding that great therapist too. 6 years later, I don't see that therapist anymore but I still am an active member in AA. I've found ALL the help I need in the program for any problem I've had since.
I didn't like AA at the time......didn't trust the ppl......but there was obviously something good going on there. So, while I continued to seek professional help, I also went back to AA. Whether it was all part of some master plan, I don't know, but it worked out perfectly. I ended up finding some great ppl in some great meetings. I also ended up finding that great therapist too. 6 years later, I don't see that therapist anymore but I still am an active member in AA. I've found ALL the help I need in the program for any problem I've had since.
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I thought AA was not for me also, I tried so hard to find another away therapy avrt sober recovery but nothing stopped me from smashing myself to pieces.. I decided to give aa another go I know see my ego was to blame for me not connecting with aa! good luck
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Hope you are home resting AW - another day ticked off the calendar. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. If you stay sober, keep going to those salt mines, and keep working towards making progress on your living situation, you will be in a better place. It really sucks that it takes so long, doesn't it? Would sure be nice if things turned around overnight - I know I feel that way! Patience is a skill, you are doing the right things. Keep it up.
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It's ironic BS, I have only ever had patience w\ my ex. Ain't that a kick in the head lol But yea took a small nap after work this am. Now just reading & trying to stay out of my head. Thanx Guys.
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