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Well I hung in there after coming within seconds of picking up that first drink. Yesterday was pure hell and my paranoia and anxiety just crept up on me and hit me hard. I think I was in a state of too much relaxtion and my mind all of sudden fired up and I was imediatley on edge. Couldn't look people in the face and was worrying about stuff that I hadn't even done (whats that all about!?) I'm a total head case when im like that. I really hope that doesn't keep happening because im seriously scared.

Anyway i'm here on day 18 and not gonna drink today.

mecanix

Feeling guilt when there's no purpose , wierd emotions , it's all part of it in my experience .

Stay true to staying sober , i did 20 years of drinking so i though a year or two of sobriety is worth going through to find out what life without it was like , seemed the logical thing to do .

Nice to have you here on day 18

Bestwishes, m