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For some reason i still dont know what to do. , I still wish my sister wasnt a drug addict.. It my opinon its not her fault, Its our parents fault.. They are alcoholics & drug addicts too. I feel like i want to blame them for their fail at being parents.. yeah my sisters mom may be my stepmom & her mom may have married my dad, but still they are ****** parents. They only hear what they want to hear. .

I have gotten a reply the other day and what they said was completely how my sister is acting.. Being homless, only coming around when she needs money. only comes around when she needs food.
I never realized it till then that my sister only asked me for money because she spent all hers on drugs.. Makes me think, should have i gave her money? I always wondered why it took months to give the same amount of money i gave her.

In all honesty, i just want my sister back, My sister made me the person i am today, When i seen her she told me she had forgotten who she was.. and in my response, i told her.. " Look at me, look at my personality, this is YOU. You are the one who made me who i am today.. Just a different name.. body and age. "

My sister is my bestfriend, i would do anything for her. I just want to help her, that is all.. But i know i cant. It sucks that i just have to sit back and watch my sister hurt herself on a day to day basis. Untill she decides she needs her own help. Only she can help herself when she wants to be helped, and i know that, I just dont want to believe it :'(

OneNightAWeek

Im sorry about your sister, and its clear you are in pain and to a degree I understand. My husband is using drugs and still has not got help when it is right there at his fingertips. It hurts, and you ask why in your mind. Your sister is very sick, drugs change the mind and the thoughts of people. Im sure your sister loves you as much as always, but it is the drugs that are keeping her away from you. What I have been doing is learning about addiction, what types of treatments are available, how people can get help, how I can do to take care of myself and stay emotionally healthy and strong, how to talk to my husband without pushing him away. I went to see an addiction specialist for the first time recently and it was the best thing I did. It wasnt easy to make that decision, but it helped understand addiction is a progressive disease. I was also enabling my husband because I wasnt being honest with him about how his drugs were hurting our relationship. If you can talk to your sister, do as you are, continue to tell her you love her, offer to help guide her into some kind of treatment, probably she needs help dealing with her childhood because growing up with drug use all around had to have an impact, but she can create a new way for herself , it doesnt have to be that way for her. Do what you can to be prepared to help her when she is ready, when she agrees.

TMZ

I know the pain you feel but you are doing the right thing. Hang in there it is not going to get better over night. wWe are here to walk through this with you. Keep posting keep reading. keep learning about it. Be there when she is ready.