My new normal....Man I hope not.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Galveston TX
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My new normal....Man I hope not.
Today is 24 days. Three weeks and 3 days. Everything drinking wise seems to be going off without a hitch. Every little side effect that I never expected arrive on a daily basis.
The anxiety or whatever the hell it is...a feeling of bigness around me...is here daily. It seems to be in the evenings, so I am not sure if that is because I am tired or if it is because that is when I would normally drink.
Yesterday I had an ocular migraine, at least that is what the "ask my nurse" told me. I was sitting at my desk and noticed that I was having a really hard time focusing. My monitor looked 3D. The more I noticed it, I realized it was coming from the right side of my vision. It was like a jagged bright colored lens was put over the right side of my eyes. I tried to close them and see if it was just a tracer but it stayed.
After about 10 minutes and self diagnosing as a stroke, I went down to our "ask my nurse" office. Within 5 minutes she had diagnosed as an ocular migraine. She said it shouldn't last more than 20 minutes, to calm down and take a walk.
I walked outside and told myself to stop freaking the F out. By time I got back inside and settle it left as quickly as it arrived. Total occurrence time, 25 minutes.
Every.Single.Day. Something new and bizarre. If this is my new normal, I better figure out quick how to deal with it.
How in the hell did I function for all these years.
The anxiety or whatever the hell it is...a feeling of bigness around me...is here daily. It seems to be in the evenings, so I am not sure if that is because I am tired or if it is because that is when I would normally drink.
Yesterday I had an ocular migraine, at least that is what the "ask my nurse" told me. I was sitting at my desk and noticed that I was having a really hard time focusing. My monitor looked 3D. The more I noticed it, I realized it was coming from the right side of my vision. It was like a jagged bright colored lens was put over the right side of my eyes. I tried to close them and see if it was just a tracer but it stayed.
After about 10 minutes and self diagnosing as a stroke, I went down to our "ask my nurse" office. Within 5 minutes she had diagnosed as an ocular migraine. She said it shouldn't last more than 20 minutes, to calm down and take a walk.
I walked outside and told myself to stop freaking the F out. By time I got back inside and settle it left as quickly as it arrived. Total occurrence time, 25 minutes.
Every.Single.Day. Something new and bizarre. If this is my new normal, I better figure out quick how to deal with it.
How in the hell did I function for all these years.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: UK
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I get those ocular migraines - it's like jagged light and it moves from one side to the other yeah? Once you realise they're nothing to worry about, they're actually quite amusing 
I used to get them on day 3 after drinking. Not had them recently, but they honestly are nothing to worry about
I used to get them on day 3 after drinking. Not had them recently, but they honestly are nothing to worry about Member
Join Date: Apr 2013
Posts: 19
I know it's hard to believe right now, but it gets better. When I was where you're at right now I thought I had lost my mind. At one point I thought that by getting sober I actually uncover some mental handicap that was being suppressed by alcohol. lol. I'm not sure how I made it through that point of my recovery, but I do know that this website helped me out a lot. What you're going through now is not going to be your new normal. It's hard for you to see, but stick with your recovery and things will start to improve.
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