Sorensen

Here I am again in hangover hell, it's 9:25 p.m. and I still feel like garbage especially after I eat something. I had to take a clonazepam about two hours because the fear and panic was becoming too much. I know I need to stop but the temptation is so strong on weekends because I worked hard during the week and want to reward myself. But it isn't a real reward. I almost get manic before I go on a bender. I keep myself in good shape and eat healthy throughout the week and only have a couple drinks on a few nights so I feel fantastic for the weekend, and like death on Sundays. I can't wait for tomorrow.

Does anyone else have similar experiences? Have you had to take a benzo the next day to cope?

ZoeM

You're lucky it's only Sundays - keep going and it will be 5 days of this x

Sorensen

Fortunately I am able to pick and choose what days to drink, and it has always been this way for me. I NEVER drink when I have responsibilities the next day. So its a bit of an enigma. I'm an alcoholic who binge drinks on weekends yet I am not dependant on alcohol - kind of a contradictory situation...

Dee74

I was like that - for years. Then suddenly...I wasn't.
Don't count on you maintaining this responsibility/control nexus forever.

Get out before you have to start makes excuses for letting folks down, sorensen.

Whats your plan for next weekend?

D

Sorensen

I think I'll go golfing

quitforme79

I wasn't so much physically dependent on alcohol as mentally. At the end I was taking a benzo the day after because the anxiety was debilitating. It was so awful, I never want to have to do that again. Hopefully you can create a plan that works for you. If a friend beat the crap out of you like alcohol does each weekend would you still hang out with him/her? It's a good question to chew on...

Dee74

Dunno if you're being serious or not, but I'm not sure a golf club would be a place I'd be if I was trying to quit drinking.

If you're serious about wanting to change, you have to make changes Sorensen...and thinking about your lifestyle and what you do on the weekends needs to be a part of that I think.

You might have better luck than I did and more power to you if you do, but trying to keep living my old alcohol sodden life and just not drinking...that didn't work for me.

D

Sorensen

Most of that sounds good except I have a problem with submitting my will to God because I believe there is no god.

ZoeM

You seem to have latched onto someone's signature
You don't have to believe in God - I don't. How about believing in yourself though and deciding you want more for yourself than this?

sugarbear1

stop insisting there is no god and move forward with the steps anyway, what have ya got to lose?

Dee74

I never mentioned God at all

Go to AA or don't go to AA, go to any one of the non 12 step programmes or not - thats your business, man - thats not at all what I was on about here.

I used SR. That was it.

But I really wanted not to drink anymore so I changed my life...

I changed what I did, and I changed who I did it with, I changed by dealing with the problems I used to drink over - boredom, anger, stress whatever - and by finding new healthy solutions to those problems.

I decided I wanted to be sober more than I needed to fit in.

Just my experience - take it or leave it - but those are the kinds of things I suggest you explore.

good luck to ya

D

ZoeM

Dee, I think he latched onto someone signature and read it as advice x

Dee74

YA MEAN IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT ME?

yeah I read your post - makes sense now.
thanks Zoe.

D

Sorensen

There are other ways then joining the cult AA to quit drinking, it has a 97% fail rate.

Sorensen

But I think that is key, you need to believe in yourself, thanks.

ZoeM

Awww we still luff ya Dee lol

Dee74

Lets not get into programme bashing, or I'll close the thread.

D

Sorensen

sorry

longbeachone

Sorenson, Everyone here understands how crazy alcohol can make you. It sounds like you want to stop drinking, but you're still trying to convince yourself (and us) that it's not a problem. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't, but if you want some help, just ask. Nobody is going to make you do anything against your belief system. There is an easier, softer way to stop and stay stopped. When you decide you're ready, help will be waiting.

Sorensen

I want to stop binge drinking on the weekend, but it is so ingrained into me with friends that it makes it very difficult. I am 27, so people are starting to slow it down and I have as well but it still lingers. Maybe there are lots of people like me that binge drink in their twenties and then once they start careers and families it becomes a thing of the past I dunno. And to be honest i'm scared to quit drinking because of the socializing that it brings.