Was Gonna "Blog" this But ...
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Was Gonna "Blog" this But ...
Decided to post since I see and read so many posts about "plans" for your recovery an all. When I started this journey; I had no real "plan" set up. I figured as I have my whole life I will just "wing" it .. 58 days in I came to a realization today .. I usually did "Plan" when I would drink; and I would 99.9% of the time ACHIEVE that plan; drink and get drunk. So now I am thinking why would just "wingin'" it work for sobriety ... So now working on a plan ... I started this post to point out something very special to me & at the same time very sad to me; coming up .. I am two days from 2 months Sober; that is bigger for me this time then my last b\c I feel more of a conviction in me ...
But at the same time it is 2 days from Jerry's passing
(Lead singer for the Grateful Dead for the youngin's) As a DeadHead I have done the same thing every August 9th since his death; Buy a six pack of Dead Guy Ale; couple shots of Goldschläger; and pick a show and Jam it till the six was gone & then would go out w\ other fellow heads to some cover band or "tape" session and get obliterated. I am fearful this year; I will NOT drink; but the desire is already there. I have come to terms w\ this battle and seems to me; Jerry died in rehab; trying to recover, So why would I EVER think it was a good thing to remember him by avoiding MINE .. So no this year I am buying some Soda; Helluva Good Buffalo Potato Chip dip; and Jamming a couple of My Favorite Shows 
Sorry for the long post; but after all my whining and struggling lately; a somewhat good post from me might be Ok
But at the same time it is 2 days from Jerry's passing
(Lead singer for the Grateful Dead for the youngin's) As a DeadHead I have done the same thing every August 9th since his death; Buy a six pack of Dead Guy Ale; couple shots of Goldschläger; and pick a show and Jam it till the six was gone & then would go out w\ other fellow heads to some cover band or "tape" session and get obliterated. I am fearful this year; I will NOT drink; but the desire is already there. I have come to terms w\ this battle and seems to me; Jerry died in rehab; trying to recover, So why would I EVER think it was a good thing to remember him by avoiding MINE .. So no this year I am buying some Soda; Helluva Good Buffalo Potato Chip dip; and Jamming a couple of My Favorite Shows Sorry for the long post; but after all my whining and struggling lately; a somewhat good post from me might be Ok
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Thanx; I love that Dip lol No clue; I can't\won't\don't do AA; But I can Jam and Hang at the board for the day till I have to sleep for work so that should be good w\ me .. I have seen several Bars promoting things though lol
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11 
Jerry died in rehab; trying to recover, So why would I EVER think it was a good thing to remember him by avoiding MINE .. So no this year I am buying some Soda; Helluva Good Buffalo Potato Chip dip; and Jamming a couple of My Favorite Shows
(my brother is a long time Dead-Head, so I understand the enthusiasm
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Thanx; that just dawned on me today while walking home from the store .. All them years we went out & fried ourselves as a "tribute" to a man who so desperately wanted to get clean for years on and off ..
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11
that just dawned on me today while walking home from the store .. All them years we went out & fried ourselves as a "tribute" to a man who so desperately wanted to get clean for years on and off ..
And memories that can be retained!
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11
Thanx; that just dawned on me today while walking home from the store .. All them years we went out & fried ourselves as a "tribute" to a man who so desperately wanted to get clean for years on and off ..
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Awesome plan August - personally, I've never understood why people would commemorate Jerry's passing by getting wasted.
He never managed to buck the beast.
He died way too young and had a lot of music left in him.
D
He never managed to buck the beast.
He died way too young and had a lot of music left in him.
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Father and mother, boys, and little sister make three,
Came weeping to the gallows, boys, and see the last of me --
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You all can sing this song, boys, when I am dead and gone,
Father and mother, boys, and little sister make three,
Came weeping to the gallows, boys, and see the last of me --
God knows, I've been all around this world.
You all can sing this song, boys, when I am dead and gone,
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11
I usually did "Plan" when I would drink; and I would 99.9% of the time ACHIEVE that plan; drink and get drunk. So now I am thinking why would just "wingin'" it work for sobriety ... So now working on a plan ...
I think Jerry would be very proud that such a big fan of his is making better choices for himself now.
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