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Place of "refuge", work is gonna be hell tonight . The "voice" has already started about pickin" up a few when I get off. On top of that I am in such pain physically & mentally, I am actually on the verge of tears .. A 42 yo man ready to lose it like a child who dropped his ice cream cone :-(
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I hope you can get through tonight and tomorrow will be better.
Drink and you'll still have all your problems and issues - you'll just have added another layer of crud to it all.
Are you getting any help with the pain or what?
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Drink and you'll still have all your problems and issues - you'll just have added another layer of crud to it all.
Are you getting any help with the pain or what?
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Try not to think of drinking and in your mind put it in a box & store it away in a closet. Try to watch a comedy or listen to some uplifting music. Perhaps getting a massage by someone like a family member or even paying for one. I know many men that do this. I know its hard as I dump lots of beer down the drain while my boyfriend as work that I find hidden in the garage but by the time he finds out stores are closed and he still lives. I hope your night goes well & that you can find peace tomorrow.
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I was talking to my friend about this earlier today. When I feel anxious or stressed I drink, and the next day I'm still anxious and stressed because the issue hasn't been resolved, only now I'm ashamed, humiliated, depressed and hungover as well. Who does that!?!? Stay strong, think about how awful you'll feel in the morning if you drink tonight and promise yourself another 24 hours sober before you pop a cork. Warm thoughts, I'm rooting for you!
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Dee; yes & no.. They cut my Meds b/c of the prescription drug prob. On break & dyin' .. Still thinkin' of getting wasted in the AM. I hate my life right now. Just wanna curl up & drown in a bottle :-( well break is over, will try & check in tomorrow..
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When I felt like life was crap...I'd drink...whenever it was I woke up again & stopped drinking life was still crap, only now there was extra crap because I'd drunk.
Whatever the solution is, it's not in the bottle AW.
You need to get that into your head, bro.
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Whatever the solution is, it's not in the bottle AW.
You need to get that into your head, bro.
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Thanx; I must say as down as I am; I am very glad I didn't get that bottle & Beers this AM. It's hard when I work nights at a Grocery Store and in there is a "Chained Off" liquor store :p I would NEVER do a thing to jeopardize my job like steal or anything; but saying all I have to do is sit at the starbucks for an hour drinking coffee after work till the store opens But nope I left right after my shift so Yea I am happy for that .. Thanx Again ..
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We can't drink alcohol and get drunk because
of it, if it's not in our reach or around us. Also
no one can force us to drink, hold us down to
drink or pour alcohol or poison down our throats.
My will power was not there to help me not
drink for yrs. and once I got into recovery,
taught about my alcoholism and handed
many useful tools to use each day to help
me avoid going to PLACES to get my drink,
or be around PEOPLE that would push my
buttons or ruffle my feathers, or handle things
in my hands that would be a part of my
drinking, then and only then was I able to
remain sober and live a sober life.
We could and would stay sober if we are
taught. Listen...Learn....Absorb.....Apply
of it, if it's not in our reach or around us. Also
no one can force us to drink, hold us down to
drink or pour alcohol or poison down our throats.
My will power was not there to help me not
drink for yrs. and once I got into recovery,
taught about my alcoholism and handed
many useful tools to use each day to help
me avoid going to PLACES to get my drink,
or be around PEOPLE that would push my
buttons or ruffle my feathers, or handle things
in my hands that would be a part of my
drinking, then and only then was I able to
remain sober and live a sober life.
We could and would stay sober if we are
taught. Listen...Learn....Absorb.....Apply
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Pink; the tears are for 29 years of bottled up emotions and the wreck I am in the middle of now actually; But thanx ... I know it is therapeutic in a sense just not at that time :p
AASharon; that is almost exactly what a guy I worked w\ before he was transferred said to me when I texted him last night .. He has been sober 23+ years I believe .. I have been reading educating and trying to fully grasp things.. But right now; I am in such a state w\ everything else going on around me, I am second guessing if this was the "right" time to get sober and Deal w\ the emotions ... I know I know; a cop out .. But trust me it is rough for me right now ..
AASharon; that is almost exactly what a guy I worked w\ before he was transferred said to me when I texted him last night .. He has been sober 23+ years I believe .. I have been reading educating and trying to fully grasp things.. But right now; I am in such a state w\ everything else going on around me, I am second guessing if this was the "right" time to get sober and Deal w\ the emotions ... I know I know; a cop out .. But trust me it is rough for me right now ..
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Emotionally, when we stop drinking we
revert back to the age we were when we
first picked up a drink. As a teenager
just beginning to drink, im pretty sure
I was still emotionally immature. And
now that im 22 yrs sober, im still acting
like a child....lol many times because
it's fun to be child like. Who wants to be
serious ALL the time.
Find someone you can hook up with
in recovery with a good number of one
days at a time sober and stick with them.
Let that person be a sounding board for
you to talk to. If you see what you like in
that person living a sober life, then follow
them.
I never had or have to stay sober, even today
alone by myself. That is why I am here. Even
tho I don't have the desire to drink at this
moment, I never know when someone, or
something as small as it might be that may
trigger something in me, I want to make
sure I have recovery thoughts always on
my mind to help me stay calm and in a
recovery zone.
It's like from day one, once I began using
the tools I learned how to stay sober each
day, or each meeting I went to, it was like
putting money in the bank for a rainey day.
I can draw on that knowledge, things Ive been
taught to learn to stay sober each day when
im restless, irritable or discontent. Or if im
emotional distraught, spiritually bankrupt,
physically in pain, mentally drained....any kind
of trigger that I use to drink over, I can now
go to the bank of recovery knowledge and tools
to help me out.
Your work buddy didn't get where they r today
happy, joyous, free, honest, content, and neither
did I.....22 yrs. is a hell of a many just one days
at a time....some extremely hellava long days at
a time collected together to get us where we r today.
I was 30 when I began my recovery journey and
now....22 yrs later.....I began my recovery the
same way if not very similar as many starting
out today. Im just older than many today....lol
And loving it...!!!!
revert back to the age we were when we
first picked up a drink. As a teenager
just beginning to drink, im pretty sure
I was still emotionally immature. And
now that im 22 yrs sober, im still acting
like a child....lol many times because
it's fun to be child like. Who wants to be
serious ALL the time.
Find someone you can hook up with
in recovery with a good number of one
days at a time sober and stick with them.
Let that person be a sounding board for
you to talk to. If you see what you like in
that person living a sober life, then follow
them.
I never had or have to stay sober, even today
alone by myself. That is why I am here. Even
tho I don't have the desire to drink at this
moment, I never know when someone, or
something as small as it might be that may
trigger something in me, I want to make
sure I have recovery thoughts always on
my mind to help me stay calm and in a
recovery zone.
It's like from day one, once I began using
the tools I learned how to stay sober each
day, or each meeting I went to, it was like
putting money in the bank for a rainey day.
I can draw on that knowledge, things Ive been
taught to learn to stay sober each day when
im restless, irritable or discontent. Or if im
emotional distraught, spiritually bankrupt,
physically in pain, mentally drained....any kind
of trigger that I use to drink over, I can now
go to the bank of recovery knowledge and tools
to help me out.
Your work buddy didn't get where they r today
happy, joyous, free, honest, content, and neither
did I.....22 yrs. is a hell of a many just one days
at a time....some extremely hellava long days at
a time collected together to get us where we r today.
I was 30 when I began my recovery journey and
now....22 yrs later.....I began my recovery the
same way if not very similar as many starting
out today. Im just older than many today....lol
And loving it...!!!!
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