Cow

I just join and is looking for accountability place to express self and have journal type entry with hopeful some input. I 30+ year alcoholic with multiple co-addiction and no successes with abstinence, but I still trying. I maybe FUBAR. But is time to make another push as my 50 birthday coming. Not to want to waste ENTIRE adult life, yes? I like to talk in more detail but wonder if there a section for to make long term diary of sobriety attempt. Can somebody say what is proper forum place for this? Thank you.

Michael66

Welcome Cow!

You could write it as a blog, or maybe put it in the 'newcomers' or the 'alcoholism' forum. I found keeping a journal really useful - it revealed a changing of my mood as time went on.

Cow

Thank you so much, where you think is best place if you wish to has needed support and insights from other.

Dee74

Hi Cow

if you want support, insights, and feedback then it's probably best to start a thread here in our newcomers forum

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Soberpotamus

Hi Cow Cute name, by the way! You can access your blog from the toolbar, at the top of the page, second from left, is the blog button.

Cow

Is okay to start maybe blog and thread? I does wish very much for advices and most especially to be call on my bullshits, of which, there will be many. MANY!

Dee74

You can post and then make that post a blog, for sure.

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Hevyn

Welcome to SR Cow - we're happy to have you here.

Cow

Thank you, yes, I wish to post for inputs but also to make blog for ongoing journal for myself.
Hevyn, you say welcome now, but I gonna exasperates you soon enough! Is okay, I really needs for honest kick in ass and feedbacks. I work in entertainment industry as comedy writer and most everybody else there is sick too. Is culture and is almost consider 'normal'. I not blaming that, my problem go way far back than that. Chain of disorder since age 9. But now, working mostly at home, with good pay, is perfect design to keep me sick. I at true bifurcation point in my life, nearing age 50. I either get healthy enough to find some window of joy to experience in my life, or I gonna live whole life without any windows of happiness at all. Thank you for listening.

Dee74

working from home can be tough, but it's not impossible to stay sober that way.

I'm disabled - I was a more or less housebound drunk for five years - I've been a more or less housebound sober guy for 6....it's all about attitude, perception, and what I really want.

If you build it, it will come

Maybe you just need to widen your support network a little.
Joining up here is great for that

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Cow

Help me build it! I not been able to build it! My buildings is like Jenga!

Cow

I no mean to be flippant, I want to make my whole story known so that you can see why is total no my fault why I sad pathetic drunk .

Dee74

I think the journey starts with deciding not to drink today.

You'll find a lot of support here, Cow.

And it's a safe anonymous place.
You can be yourself

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Cow

Dee, I has decided that very thing hundred, thousand times. I has made not short but futile run at it even under good therapies. Two monthsmy longest in 30 years. But 50 birthday looming on me like last chance at life. Health is waning. Is SO BIG because I never really know what even mean to has a life or what I even is like as person because I not even remember back far enough to when I 'normal'. I been so detach and dead in prison for many years. Thank you for listening.

Dee74

It's a leap of faith cow - drinking was killing me - I just trusted not drinking would have to be better...and it was.

Not overnight - it took a month or three...some days sucked but there's support here...

but I eventually uncovered a me I'd totally forgotten about.

I'm sure you will too