I am tired
You struggle more when you bottle it all in. They say that a problem shared is a problem halved. It may not always be as easy as that but sharing does help to alleviate some of the pain you're feeling.
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Strangely tired here as well for two days now. My bet is it is PAWS and recovery that temporarily causes jamming around the whole body (or maybe it is AV experimenting with disruptive signals). I speak for myself obviously.
Some keen memories from the past, especially childhood have come to my mind as if needing urgent attention. They are coupled with a sense of either guilt, disrespect for self or disliking self and depressed feeling. But they also go, they don't really linger that long I believe. Hmm... I hope you get your perspective in order.
Some keen memories from the past, especially childhood have come to my mind as if needing urgent attention. They are coupled with a sense of either guilt, disrespect for self or disliking self and depressed feeling. But they also go, they don't really linger that long I believe. Hmm... I hope you get your perspective in order.
I like your plan...it's simple and it's in the moment. I find that is important for me when I'm struggling. It's good for me to keep things real simple and basic. Getting back to the basics such as eating, sleeping, taking care of the home, and not drinking no matter what is sometimes all that I can do.
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Hi Acheleus. I know that you will make it through this struggle. It is one day at a time. Maybe the new meds will help you with your anxiety. I am sorry to see that this has been a hard road. You are going to be well A. Keep working through the hard stuff and you will come out on the other side of this much stronger. We are here for you.
I'm just so tired of tricking myself into believing I can drink. I cannot. Now I feel so scared and alone but I know tomorrow I will feel a little bit better and I have to focus on being devoted to my recovery. AA meeting tomorrow at 5, might go walking tonight if I don't feel better soon. Thank you Mizz. I'm so sick of being sick. It's time for me to wake up and grow up.
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I'm just so tired of tricking myself into believing I can drink. I cannot. Now I feel so scared and alone but I know tomorrow I will feel a little bit better and I have to focus on being devoted to my recovery. AA meeting tomorrow at 5, might go walking tonight if I don't feel better soon. Thank you Mizz. I'm so sick of being sick. It's time for me to wake up and grow up.
I felt hopeless last night but it was a short moment.. I started cleaning, posted here and feedback was what kept me going... I stayed busy fr a couple of hrs and that need to go out went away. Stay strong, find what works for you... Sometimes you just have to be in the moment and say that having a drink is not an option at this moment... It helps me..
I also found out that I can't do this alone without a support system in person, AA is helping so much... Just keep posting..
I also found out that I can't do this alone without a support system in person, AA is helping so much... Just keep posting..
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