Please please help...
Please please help...
Iam scared to death that iam going to be hurt or jailed whilst out drinking.. I have drunk every Saturday for the past 3 weeks when iam out I turn into a complete ego maniac I have no fear Wat so ever and iam scared to death.. I won't out of this but every time I stop drinking i am filled with irashional fears about stupid things...does anyone know how or what I need to do in order to fix this... Should I go to a addiction therapist and back to aa.? Even the thought of going to a therapist scares me... I just feel so trapped and worried.
Lionhearted,
First, I'm glad that you're here. Please remember when you read what I have to say that I am truly trying to help. I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
Please reread this thread that you created:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...tay-sober.html
This is going to continue on and on and on until you take action and make a choice be it go to a counselor or go back to AA. No one can do this for you, you have to make the decision and do it.
Everyone here is behind you but we are words on a page. We can support you but you must take action.
Between that thread that I just posted and the one that you just created what have you done to actively try to remain sober?
If you've done nothing then this is all going to continue in the same manner that it is right now and you're right to be scared.
Come on, YOU CAN DO THIS. Take the FIRST STEP!
First, I'm glad that you're here. Please remember when you read what I have to say that I am truly trying to help. I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
Please reread this thread that you created:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...tay-sober.html
This is going to continue on and on and on until you take action and make a choice be it go to a counselor or go back to AA. No one can do this for you, you have to make the decision and do it.
Everyone here is behind you but we are words on a page. We can support you but you must take action.
Between that thread that I just posted and the one that you just created what have you done to actively try to remain sober?
If you've done nothing then this is all going to continue in the same manner that it is right now and you're right to be scared.
Come on, YOU CAN DO THIS. Take the FIRST STEP!
I also wanted to add that you remind me of my brother. He calls himself "The Kid" when he gets drinking and looks for fights. He's 61 years old now and drinks like he's still in his 20s. It's not funny anymore, he just had eye surgery because he drinks and has diabetes and his blood vessels have broken in his eyes because of his drinking. He could go blind because of this and that will kill him. It kills me that he won't stop and still, I know that I can't do anything for him.
Please, please, please, take that step and look for help! I mean it, YOU CAN DO THIS! You know that you can, you just need to make the decision.
Please, please, please, take that step and look for help! I mean it, YOU CAN DO THIS! You know that you can, you just need to make the decision.
All I can do is be here and tell you that it will stop when you take different actions and I know how difficult it is at the beginning but it isn't impossible. What was working for you before your relapse? What were you doing differently? What could you add to your recovery tool box this time to make it stick?
It is not impossible for real alcoholics and addicts to achieve sobriety, even after multiple slips and many bad decisions. I know because I have done it and I'm no one special. Maybe you should look into an out patitent or in patitent program for a little while? Maybe you just need to go to a meeting today or call someone for help? Someone who can be there next to you today and stay sober with you?
I wish you the best. I'm so sorry you are suffering. I just hope it gets better from here. Don't give up. You can break the pattern.
It is not impossible for real alcoholics and addicts to achieve sobriety, even after multiple slips and many bad decisions. I know because I have done it and I'm no one special. Maybe you should look into an out patitent or in patitent program for a little while? Maybe you just need to go to a meeting today or call someone for help? Someone who can be there next to you today and stay sober with you?
I wish you the best. I'm so sorry you are suffering. I just hope it gets better from here. Don't give up. You can break the pattern.
Iam scared to death that iam going to be hurt or jailed whilst out drinking.. I have drunk every Saturday for the past 3 weeks when iam out I turn into a complete ego maniac I have no fear Wat so ever and iam scared to death.. I won't out of this but every time I stop drinking i am filled with irashional fears about stupid things...does anyone know how or what I need to do in order to fix this... Should I go to a addiction therapist and back to aa.? Even the thought of going to a therapist scares me... I just feel so trapped and worried.
It can be done as many on the site will atest. For me it took
desperation
complete surrender
willingness
medical advice
detox
rehab
education
rehab and AA
AA, a sponsor, and working the steps
continuing to work the program of Alcoholics Anonymous
Half measures will avail you nothing as you already discovered. it can be done now all you have to do is to it
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Lion..let your fear allow the possibility of trying ANYTHING to stay sober. That's what it came down to for me. I had no certainty as to what might happen..when I drank. The solution was to not drink..and I was willing to do ANYTHING to not drink. I made a list of things I could do instead of drinking..an AA meeting was on that last...so was posting at SR BEFORE I drank. You have to sort out the moment BEFORE you pick up..what the hell are you going to do instead?? I see a therapist bi-weekly..and it's a crucial part of my recovery...as is SR. As is reading about sobriety and alcoholism. You need TOOLS. Where are you going to find them? You can't "just stop" and go about your business. You need to prepare for this "effin" war..it's a war man..no doubt about it..and you need ALLIES in this war...people, tools, information, guidance, support, wisdom...you need everything you can get your bloody hands on to stay sober cuz it sounds PERILOUS if you don't stop it right NOW.
Thanks so much..... I need to stop reading the words and do them... What have I been doing for my recovery not much going gym reading and posting on here... I know I need to do actions... I will call an addiction therapist tommorow and I think I will start reconnecting with my aa friends...
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