Tough day down
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Tough day down
I'm in my home state for a wedding tomorrow. Being here is hard for me & today a family member upset me & I had thoughts to drink like I haven't in awhile. It was scary BUT I prayed, called my sponser & then 3 other fellow alcoholics until someone picked up. Those women were my source of strength... God put them in my life for times like these. I wanted to post here but was driving during my mini meltdown lol I know I would've been supported here too & for that il extra blessed.
After the wedding is over tomorrow night, I am driving home. It will be worth the long drive & I truly can't wait. Wherever I go there I am yes, but here is just not a good place for me, especially in early sobriety when I'm still learning how to deal w active family members by setting up healthy boundaries. Today, I started to feel like a victim again, like I did when I was drinking. Full of fear, self pity & one step away from needing a wahmbulamce! I don't have to live like that anymore. It's not all about me, I need to be reminded sometimes though. Went to an AA meeting here & although I knew no one, everyone was very welcoming. Felt like a celebrity visitor lol there goes my ego again 8 months tomorrow. So little but so amazzzzing. Every day sober is!
After the wedding is over tomorrow night, I am driving home. It will be worth the long drive & I truly can't wait. Wherever I go there I am yes, but here is just not a good place for me, especially in early sobriety when I'm still learning how to deal w active family members by setting up healthy boundaries. Today, I started to feel like a victim again, like I did when I was drinking. Full of fear, self pity & one step away from needing a wahmbulamce! I don't have to live like that anymore. It's not all about me, I need to be reminded sometimes though. Went to an AA meeting here & although I knew no one, everyone was very welcoming. Felt like a celebrity visitor lol there goes my ego again 8 months tomorrow. So little but so amazzzzing. Every day sober is!
Hi quit. I'm glad you resisted the urge to drink - good job. It never, ever gives us the comfort or relief we imagine it will. Once I finally realized that it was much easier to stay sober.
Sounds like you're handling everything very well. Posting here was a good idea. We're all with you.
Sounds like you're handling everything very well. Posting here was a good idea. We're all with you.
Isn't it wonderful to have a support system of women in recovery to call on? I recently relocated and literally knew one other person here before I moved. I have been attending women's meetings and now have a wonderful group of women friends for support and encouragement. The fellowship of AA is awesome.
Good for you to call on them when you needed them.
Good for you to call on them when you needed them.
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"It never, ever gives us the comfort or relief we imagine it will. Once I finally realized that it was much easier to stay sober" Hevyn this really helps me. In a tough moment , my mind and body can forget the places alcohol can take me to. Thank you & everyone else who responded I just woke up from a terrible drinking dream .... Feeling so grateful I don't have to feel that way anymore.
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I'm very proud of you too!
I did an Irish wedding sober.
I surprised myself when I realised I was not missing out by not drinking and that actually weddings are super, super dull.
I think I only enjoyed weddings in the past cos I could drink my way through them!
I also think some are a a disaster waiting to happen.
Drinking all day, not enough food.
I went to one once and my partner was that drunk, he almost staggered into the professional BBQ and wiped the whole thing out.
It was the biggest BBQ I had ever seen. It was enormous. And he nearly went careering into it!
I did an Irish wedding sober.
I surprised myself when I realised I was not missing out by not drinking and that actually weddings are super, super dull.
I think I only enjoyed weddings in the past cos I could drink my way through them!
I also think some are a a disaster waiting to happen.
Drinking all day, not enough food.
I went to one once and my partner was that drunk, he almost staggered into the professional BBQ and wiped the whole thing out.
It was the biggest BBQ I had ever seen. It was enormous. And he nearly went careering into it!
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