Bang615

I relapsed for 6 days, didnt use too much but I did use. Been clean this time for 6 days. I have the willpower right now to not use... As I did just turn down the "do you need anything" text. What gets to me is when I read about people where it took months and months or even years to feel normal again. That's what scares me.. When I think that it could take me months to feel normal I get depressed and feel like there's no point, after all 1 pill could make me feel better now. I know I can't go back to where I was a month ago because I can't hide it from my family anymore. I will also be trying to get back on track financially for a long time.

BigShoe

It may take a year to feel better. But you'll feel better for far longer than the time you will have left if you keep using. Give it a good go.

Dee74

Hi Bang

I think as addicts we get really tuned into the now - immediate gratification - but honestly - thats not how the world works for anyone over ten, y'know?

The fact is I look back and the time it took me to feel normal really wasn't that long at all.

I drank for decades - it took me three months to start to feel normal and maybe a year to sort myself out - I still think that's a bloody good deal.


I hope your journey will be shorter....but ultimately - whats the alternative?

keep on using, have things get worse and worse and end up dead before your time?

D

Petecrab

Look at the choices.... Stop now and it may take a year to get normal (probably less) or don't stop and never get better.. Which sounds more appealing?

Nighthawk8820

Yeah, but you will never know if you dont try. Obviously immediate gratification isnt working for you anyway, or you wouldnt be here. It can take over a year to feel close to 100% better, but its not about the destination, its about all you learn and how much you grow on the ride. Every-time I notice I am doing something that wouldn't have happened when I was using, I smile. Ive made new friends, my confidence is on an upward slope (unlike the downward spiral when I was drinking). I have bad days, but that is life and I feel I am able to deal with them now, without running to alcohol. Im having a BLAST on this ride, and I am excited to see what is going to happen next. I still get bouts of PAWS or anxiety, but the good days outshine anything else for me. Im Thrilled to be alive, and not even close to 100% better, but its a process. I will take today, who I am and how I feel, over any day I was using. That is a fact.

least

I hope you can quit using for good this time. Your life will improve greatly if you are clean.