alf044

Having a tough time right now. Feeling sh**y.

Dee74

whats up alf?

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Received

Yeah, I'm around too. What's going on, alf?

alf044

Just lookin to chat. My drinking urge is strong at the moment. It sucks.

Dee74

Many of us have had nights like that.

As long as you stand firm and don't drink you'll be ok, fighting the urge gets a little easier every time.

Think about where that drink takes you alf - think through past the drink, and think about the consequences.

You won't regret waking up sober tomorrow morning, trust me

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alf044

I hate where i'm at. Been drinking since i was 14. Now for te past 2 years i have trying to be sober but im having a hell of atime

Received

For me, that urge to drink is not me but my AV/Beast. I generally tell the POS to shut up. I also make sure I have eaten and if I am tired I go to bed.

Dee74

Joining SR was a good step Alf - lots of support here

you've said before you don't want to do it alone anymore - have you thought of other real life support as well - a recovery programme like AA or SMART or something else, or maybe seeing your Dr or a counsellor?

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Do you have a plan in place, alf?

alf044

I've been fighting the beast. I am going to lose everything i have if it wins. I never thought it would be this tough. Thought i could quit no prob.

alf044

Being here is my plan at the moment. It is helping.

Dee74

If it was no prob to quit we wouldn't need SR alf

it does get easier...but the first few weeks are pretty tough for most of us.

compare the years you drank to time you've been sober - give it some time, alf

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Soberpotamus

What helps me sometimes when I am very overwhelmed by thoughts and feelings (about anything, not just drink cravings) is to know that I am NOT my thoughts and I am NOT my feelings... That means I am the higher consciousness that gets to pick and choose how I will act and behave. So whenever I feel a panic or thought that one day I might want a drink really bad, I can take some comfort in knowing that just because I think I might drink doesn't mean I will. Hope this makes sense.

Some people just call those thoughts their AV, the thoughts of drinking. And some people call that higher consciousness their Higher Power.

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I don't ever fight or engage my beast. I acknowledge it is there but it has absolutely no power over me. It's pathetic and wants only one thing which it will never get, ever.

Can you just go to bed and call it a day?

alf044

I agree. Drank for 27 out of my 41 yrs so far. Times up. Need to stop

Received

Being here is great. I quit drinking the night I joined here, learned about Rational Recovery/AVRT and am now permanently abstinent.

There are many roads to recovery. Here is a link that discusses some:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

Information about Rational Recovery/AVRT is in our Secular Connections forum:Secular Connections - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

alf044

I am reading the big book and trying to figure out why the hell i have to drink.

Soberpotamus

I think there are probably tons of reasons people have for drinking. Some would argue there's just one: to get a buzz or to get drunk.

Why not think of reasons to get sober?

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alf044

I have tons of reasons to stay sober. I'm fighting continually within. My beast seems to be huge.

Received

Oh, I used to believe I drank for all different reasons. Childhood abuse, rape, death of loved ones, depression, anxiety and so on. Terrible things happen to people that never abuse drink or drug. Life is life.

For me, it boiled down to one thing and one thing only. I drank to get drunk.