Iwanttobebetter

I was doing so well. Just thinking to myself that I had no cravings any
More. Next thing I know I'm standing there taking 4 shots in a row. Why or why? It came so out of left field that I'm in shock.

Soberpotamus

There is a thought process involved in relapse. It is a progressive spiral toward the moment you take the drink. I recommend reading Gorski's Staying Sober, he has the best explanation of the relapse warning signs and progression that I've ever read.

Iwanttobebetter

Thanks. Will definitely look at that.

AlexaDaly

Dude! wow that's scary! But hey you recognized it for what it is. Forgive yourself, dust yourself off, get back on that wagon! You doing okay now?

Iwanttobebetter

I think I'm ok. I just ordered the book recommended by Jennie.

DisplacedGRITS

When i think about my relapses, i often try to figure out my thought process that led to the relapse. Right before i take the first drink, there is no thought. There's just "i'm going to drink." There is a lot of stuff that's usually going on in the background but right before that first drink, there's hardly any thought at all. When i turn down or avoid that drink during a craving, there's a lot of thought. Should i? Shouldn't i? Why do i want this? Why do i want to stay sober? Is it really worth going down this path again? So many questions and i always come to the answer that i won't drink. If i'm conscious of my thoughts and willing to do the thinking, i am unlikely to drink. If my practices and actions leading up to that moment are bad, i am at risk of a drink. I always have to be practicing sobriety and sober thinking, even when i don't feel like i'm at risk of drinking.

Anna

I agree with DG. I remember, just before relapsing, there was no thought, none. Once I realized that, then I learned to catch myself before I reached the 'no thought' stage. The disease of alcoholism is relentless and devious.

Ladybug2

Hi there, same thing just recently happened to me. I had 48 days and blew it. In know why you mean about it coming out of nowhere. Got back on the wagon the next day, but still trying to figure out what happened Glad you came back too

Dollyangel17

Glad I read this, because I feel so vulnerable to relapse now too. I haven't yet, but feel it could happen so easily if I am not careful.

I am going to order that book as well...thanks SoberJennie for the suggestion, and Iwanttobebetter....hang in there, you will do this!

least

I'm glad you're back on the right path now.

Iwanttobebetter

Thanks guys. I went to bed relatively early and woke up feeling good. I will pick myself back up and move forward.

LetG0

Another day is another chance at a new life! We got your back

visch1

HI. "The disease of alcoholism is relentless and devious." It's on a 24 hour work schedule as well. In AA it's called insidious, cunning and baffling with good reason. BE WELL