need a hug...
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
need a hug...
typed a whole bunch about my binging....lost it in the ethernet...you know the drill...just need to stop...have one drink and know your done....so sucks...much love to all those in the struggle...would be so cool to be able to have one drink and stop...how do they do that?
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
Originally Posted by Murchovski 
One drink never brought me to where I wanted to be.
More x many more brought me to Hell on Earth.
More x many more brought me to Hell on Earth.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2012
Location: San Diego
Posts: 611
I have NO idea! I don't think I had one very often and when I did I was probably pissed off at the lack of effect. I drank for the feeling of ease and comfort or to numb bad feelings but never just one if I could help it. Sometimes my fiancée (who is not an alcoholic or even a heavy drinker) has one beer at night after dinner while he plays his guitar and I am fascinated by the whole thing right down to what beer he chooses and why. Haha. He likes the "craft brew" thing and like "wine tasting" it's more about the flavors or whatever - what the hell? Lol. I just wanted my shots of whatever so I could get messed up and forget whatever was going on in my head. But I'm an alcoholic. That's the difference. For whatever reason, the effect the alcohol has on me is very different and I know that so I don't have to try the "just one" thing anymore.
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
Originally Posted by BabyJane
I have NO idea! I don't think I had one very often and when I did I was probably pissed off at the lack of effect. I drank for the feeling of ease and comfort or to numb bad feelings but never just one if I could help it. Sometimes my fiancée (who is not an alcoholic or even a heavy drinker) has one beer at night after dinner while he plays his guitar and I am fascinated by the whole thing right down to what beer he chooses and why. Haha. He likes the "craft brew" thing and like "wine tasting" it's more about the flavors or whatever - what the hell? Lol. I just wanted my shots of whatever so I could get messed up and forget whatever was going on in my head. But I'm an alcoholic. That's the difference. For whatever reason, the effect the alcohol has on me is very different and I know that so I don't have to try the "just one" thing anymore.
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
Anyway, here is your hug. You're doing good. Keep your chin up. Whatever you're going through, others have walked through it sober and you're not alone. Remember that. Let the beer geeks and the wine tasters have their little hobby - I have a whole new family of sober friends and a newfound strength in my life; A new happiness growing as I navigate this tough stuff and don't drink. It's difficult but I am SO glad I'm not passing out drunk tonight to wake up to a nightmare on Monday and want to do it all again... No thanks.
((((Hug))))
Member
Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 559
Originally Posted by PrimalScream
typed a whole bunch about my binging....lost it in the ethernet...you know the drill...just need to stop...have one drink and know your done....so sucks...much love to all those in the struggle...would be so cool to be able to have one drink and stop...how do they do that?
welcome to SR.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
Originally Posted by Dee74
Hi PS
I'm sorry you're feeling bad but it's good to see you.
I hope you decide to make changes, man.
You don't need to feel this way.
D
I'm sorry you're feeling bad but it's good to see you.
I hope you decide to make changes, man.
You don't need to feel this way.
D
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
see i just poured out about 10 of a 12 pack thinking I can only have 2 more...then I see in the back of the fridge there is still 2 left from the first 12...**** me...hopeless alcoholic...normal folk would go to be and maybe have another one next weekend...I have to finish these damn things...but i probably won't...and i know if I am done after 2 more I will pour out those last 2...I am a trained alchy if nothing else...but I am probably full of **** as I type...I will probably guzzle down those last 2 before bed...
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
Originally Posted by Dee74
I really think you'd get a lot out of being a regular member here again PS...not just when you have buyers remorse, y'know?
hope to see you here again tomorrow
D
hope to see you here again tomorrow
D
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
Originally Posted by Dee74
You're as normal as anyone else here - everyone has home truths they need to accept sooner or later - we're no different in that respect IMO
D
D
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Vancouver, BC
Posts: 219
sobriety is the coolest state there is...I must embrace this...isn't it weird how we all know this but still find any excuse to be ****** up...I think we all must have unresolved issues...I would like to think that...but maybe we would get ****** up even if we didn't have issues...
Member
Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Atlanta, Ga
Posts: 291
I understand completely! I failed a couple of weeks ago and starting over was pure hell. Sober again for 12 days and still cannot get the thoughts of how bad physically and mentally it felt those first 3 days without a drink.
One thing positive, when I am sober I wake up feeling much better. Good Luck!
One thing positive, when I am sober I wake up feeling much better. Good Luck!
Member
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: CAPE COD, MA
Posts: 1,020
Originally Posted by PrimalScream
sobriety is the coolest state there is...I must embrace this...isn't it weird how we all know this but still find any excuse to be ****** up...I think we all must have unresolved issues...I would like to think that...but maybe we would get ****** up even if we didn't have issues...
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
