Day 17 check in
Hope you have a great weekend as well. Weekends are a little weird for me too, as it was usually thrown down beer and play in the pool. Adjusting to it though. Be strong; you'll/we'll get used to it. Positive re-enforcement (Blizzard!) Awesome idea Dr. Skinner.
Went swimming and was going to chat up a girl but I figured it is best just swim laps and focus on improving myself. My knee hurts to walk on but swimming does not bother it. So I have to study tonight and I will be having a quiet Saturday night. I still feel like I have no life and am wasting my time in this fun college town, but I know sobriety is my number one priority right now. I keep telling my self I am a person that can't drink, not a person that does not drink. Alcohol is not an option.
Thanks Dee. I am living large tonight: Stanley Cup Playoffs, sweet potatoes, Kale, and blueberries. I don't have to go to a bar to have fun. Being alone is ok right now. I went swimming earlier and feel good right now. I hope everyone is livin la vida sober.
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I know where you're coming from. It's saturday night and I'm alone. Earlier I realized I haven't got myself a strong social network because I have used alcohol as a companion and boredom cure. There are times I'm content to be at home alone as long as I've got a bottle of wine. I tried getting a gf to go to karaoke or something but she was busy. I've been to a pub a couple times and haven't been triggered whatsoever..but I do want to go out and see people. I really need to cultivate more friends to DO things with...
Strawberries just came into season here so I stopped and bought a vat at a roadside stand. I just made a strawberry pineapple smoothie thing which I'm sipping on now.it's pretty delicious. Ah well...guess it's me and a good book tonight.
Strawberries just came into season here so I stopped and bought a vat at a roadside stand. I just made a strawberry pineapple smoothie thing which I'm sipping on now.it's pretty delicious. Ah well...guess it's me and a good book tonight.
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Yay Ach!!! Yes, it can be boring but I've realized with time that I much prefer boredom to boozing. At least I don't wake up feeling like I got hit by a truck when I spend the evening bored.
I had to reset my thinking and learn that normal life can be dull. But I also learned to appreciate the naps in the afternoon, television (I actually enjoy and remember shows!) and just relaxing. During my 5 years of abusing alcohol, I don't remember once ever truly relaxing. I was always busy drinking or thinking about drinking or recovering from drinking.
I've only got 9 months but slowly I'm filling my time with things I enjoy - reading, movies, and believe it or not, eating!! I've recently become interested in the foods I eat and getting proper nutrition. Go figure. Lol!!
I had to reset my thinking and learn that normal life can be dull. But I also learned to appreciate the naps in the afternoon, television (I actually enjoy and remember shows!) and just relaxing. During my 5 years of abusing alcohol, I don't remember once ever truly relaxing. I was always busy drinking or thinking about drinking or recovering from drinking.
I've only got 9 months but slowly I'm filling my time with things I enjoy - reading, movies, and believe it or not, eating!! I've recently become interested in the foods I eat and getting proper nutrition. Go figure. Lol!!
Yeah I never met people when I went out drinking except bar flies. So I am going to try and meet people somewhere. People in the class I am taking are not very nice, or maybe I am just too quiet. But this is the longest I have been sober so I am just trying to enjoy nature and I feel like I am coming back to life. Alcohol killed all my positive traits I was full of BS or mean. So I am going to play guitar, maybe write poetry, do all the things that used to make me feel good. Giving up alcohol allows me to see that it is wrong to want to feel good all the time. Sometimes we have to be sad or lonely or angry and learn to grow. So I am going to keep growing a little every day and not give up.
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Yeah I never met people when I went out drinking except bar flies. So I am going to try and meet people somewhere. People in the class I am taking are not very nice, or maybe I am just too quiet. But this is the longest I have been sober so I am just trying to enjoy nature and I feel like I am coming back to life. Alcohol killed all my positive traits I was full of BS or mean. So I am going to play guitar, maybe write poetry, do all the things that used to make me feel good. Giving up alcohol allows me to see that it is wrong to want to feel good all the time. Sometimes we have to be sad or lonely or angry and learn to grow. So I am going to keep growing a little every day and not give up.
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This road is not easy. I guess thats why there's so many support groups. We need each other, and can learn from everyone's thoughts. I hope that you have a good evening.
I was once a guitar player, still am but I hardly pick up. My guitar is named Norma. She is sitting in the corner collecting dust. Maybe one day again.
Yeah bored would be part of HALT (hungry, angry, lonley, tired) but it would mess up the acronym. If I really think about it though I was still bored when I was drinking, I was just too drunk to notice. I am putting a lot more effort into my recovery this time and I find that I am spending most of my free time on that. Time seems to fly by so I guess I haven't gotten bored doing it.
Also congrats on 17 days!
Also congrats on 17 days!
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