Think this Needs to be Done ..
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Think this Needs to be Done ..
I am an alcoholic . I have never in my, 29years of drinking; stated this. I can't control it .. I have tried; did great the first 3 years I moved up here .. last 2 are all a blur 
I've come to terms w\ it sitting here today . I always said I was a lush and that was that .. My friends from where I just got back from ALL drink; most control it better. I can't control it hence I am trying to take a stand and occupy my mind right now. But I have always known . I mean there is a post floating around about what were your first sign you were an alcoholic that was ignored or silenced by your AV .. Not sure of the wording but I feel I should embrace my sobriety this time and jump head in to it . 13 was my first sign . When your 13 years old slamming Vodka and smoking your first cig as a chaser; it is obvious you got issues . 16 when we "borrowed" a car and rolled it and I fell 40+ feet running from the man; Yea you got a problem. When your younger brother is holding you down telling you your too drunk to leave the house; Yea I am an alcoholic from way too long back and NEED to beat this ..
I've come to terms w\ it sitting here today . I always said I was a lush and that was that .. My friends from where I just got back from ALL drink; most control it better. I can't control it hence I am trying to take a stand and occupy my mind right now. But I have always known . I mean there is a post floating around about what were your first sign you were an alcoholic that was ignored or silenced by your AV .. Not sure of the wording but I feel I should embrace my sobriety this time and jump head in to it . 13 was my first sign . When your 13 years old slamming Vodka and smoking your first cig as a chaser; it is obvious you got issues . 16 when we "borrowed" a car and rolled it and I fell 40+ feet running from the man; Yea you got a problem. When your younger brother is holding you down telling you your too drunk to leave the house; Yea I am an alcoholic from way too long back and NEED to beat this ..
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Congratulations August! That's a HUGE turning point. I said it out load to a group of strangers in 2006. I didn't say it again...well, in all honesty...I don't think I have said it out load to anyone in the week or so that I've been sober this time.
Hi August...I'm an alcoholic too.
Hi August...I'm an alcoholic too.
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I'm sure it does. Instead of looking at the blazing NO before you...have a look at the beautiful flaming YES in your hand. "It's a beautiful day" to be sober (sorry Michael Buble is currently singing that on my radio)
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I'm am alcoholic, too, August. But, let's get on with this and move forward. It can be done. There are a lot of success stories in SR that will tell you that. Some that were even worse off, some that took longer, but they all stuck with it, and are here to remind us. It can be done. And remember, tears are good. They remind us we are human.
You know you have tons of support here on SR
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Hi August, congrats for being honest with yourself! 
I guess there's worse things sometimes than coming to a place of total honesty, you know? Change happens only when we get real...
Good for you! Hang in there!
I guess there's worse things sometimes than coming to a place of total honesty, you know? Change happens only when we get real... Good for you! Hang in there!
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It is overwhelming, but you can do this. Make sure "can't" is removed from your vocabulary from this point forward. Maybe it was never there. But, if it is.....you CAN do anything you set your mind do. So, "can't" is just not possible.
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Just talked my 1 & only friend up here; He has been clean and sober awhile (3+years) He has offered to take me to meetings; detox whatever I decide so that is another step I took ..
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11 
Just talked my 1 & only friend up here; He has been clean and sober awhile (3+years) He has offered to take me to meetings; detox whatever I decide so that is another step I took ..
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Stay focused on the good August...don't muddle your brain up with "what if's" and a future you have no control over. You have control over your here and now. And you're taking good steps..don't kick yourself in the head like that with something undetermined.
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