Sick of this cycle
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Join Date: Apr 2013
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Sick of this cycle
Also sick of waking up shaking from the weekend binge. As soon as I go downstairs I'm pouring out the rest of the vodka. This is going to be my last day 1. Time for change and today it starts.
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Hi. Congratulations on seeing what's happening to your life. Life can and will get better putting the plug in the jug one day at a time. I found it helpful thinking about NOT drinking opposed to thinking about drinking. Asking for help is a very positive step as well. BE WELL
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I kno exctly how u feel sinderos. I've been trying since last december. It makes me feel like a failure because I see a lot of people getting it right the first time. But, there's also many that don't. I fall in2 that catagory. But, I'm back at trying it again. As long as we are alive, there's still hope. U are not alone ! We can do this.
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Sinderos:
A while back you posted the following 5 items as your plan to stay sober. You also posted not too long after that that you had found some local AA meetings and were going to try them out. I'm not posting any of this to try and shame you for not doing them - just a reminder that you did have a plan and it sounded pretty good to me. Did you try the steps? If you did and they didn't work, any thoughts on how you might tweak them? Did you make it to the AA meetings at all?
These were your steps...
1) put aside my fears of someone I know finding out I have a problem and go to AA.
2) become active at the gym
3) put in extra time at the office until my desk is in better shape (we're short handed so I've been a little stressed)
4) become active at church (actually go on Sundays and find somewhere to connect)
5) pick up learning to play the piano again
A while back you posted the following 5 items as your plan to stay sober. You also posted not too long after that that you had found some local AA meetings and were going to try them out. I'm not posting any of this to try and shame you for not doing them - just a reminder that you did have a plan and it sounded pretty good to me. Did you try the steps? If you did and they didn't work, any thoughts on how you might tweak them? Did you make it to the AA meetings at all?
These were your steps...
1) put aside my fears of someone I know finding out I have a problem and go to AA.
2) become active at the gym
3) put in extra time at the office until my desk is in better shape (we're short handed so I've been a little stressed)
4) become active at church (actually go on Sundays and find somewhere to connect)
5) pick up learning to play the piano again
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Join Date: Apr 2013
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Scott, the only thing I did was go to the gym. I didn't follow through with any of it. I really feel different this time. If I get back from my nephews birthday dinner in time (I think I will) then I'm going to an AA meeting tonight. I had intentions of going to church yesterday but was too wasted. Talking about what I'm going to do is so much easier than putting it into action. I'm going to take it one day at a time and do the very best I can. Visch1 have a great piece of advice saying they found it helpful to think about not drinking as opposed to thinking about drinking. I've definitely got to work on my mindset!
I'm sick of this cycle and really want change for the better.
I'm sick of this cycle and really want change for the better.
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a willingness, a desire, to put down the drink: time to take the next step...be kind to yourself...
I spit and sputtered for a long time...
one day (in a nutshell) I woke up sober feeling physically good...emotional wreck...but then I gorged on really healthy foods and fluids...got a lot of sleep...and off I was on the road of recovery.
The first few days I isolated but for whatever reasons this time I didn't go through withdrawals and my mind was fairly clear...It was the best start I had compared to the sweats, shakes, vomitting, paranoia, cravings, aches, insomnia, etc.
You'd think I would have quit because of the nasty and painful withdrawals. I didn't because drinking alcohol "solved" all that crap.
Feeling good physically and emotionally -- there was no need for alcohol...no wd's to be relieved...
I don't know...something on those lines
I spit and sputtered for a long time...
one day (in a nutshell) I woke up sober feeling physically good...emotional wreck...but then I gorged on really healthy foods and fluids...got a lot of sleep...and off I was on the road of recovery.
The first few days I isolated but for whatever reasons this time I didn't go through withdrawals and my mind was fairly clear...It was the best start I had compared to the sweats, shakes, vomitting, paranoia, cravings, aches, insomnia, etc.
You'd think I would have quit because of the nasty and painful withdrawals. I didn't because drinking alcohol "solved" all that crap.
Feeling good physically and emotionally -- there was no need for alcohol...no wd's to be relieved...
I don't know...something on those lines
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Join Date: Jul 2011
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I am in a similar spot as you Sinderos. Sick of the cycle. Sobriety was the best thing that ever happened to me, and somehow I keep letting it go time and time again, with so much regret. Let's just do this once and for all.
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Sending you positive sobriety and vibes of strength to get you through your detox to start working your plan. I've been 8 days sober...come on in, the water is fine. It's more than fine..it's so beautiful I could cry.
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