AugustWest11

Just wanted to say TY for all the support . But yea I relapsed; bad .. Been binging since tuesday .. Funny think is finally today I am starting to get my head back b\c my cousin got a kitten while I have been here; any the kitten has taken to me and has helped , Will post more when back home ..Again Thanx for the vibes .. Wish I looked here tuesday

Nuudawn

Come back August. Just make sure you come back.

Dee74

This is a marathon not a sprint - just because you stumbled doesn't mean you can't get back up and keep running, AW.

The key is to never ever give up.

D

1stthingsfirst

We have all been there. Dee is right, "the key is to never ever give up."

Hope your detox goes well.

AugustWest11

no i am coming back; I don't like this me and just want the old me back . Thanx Nuud & Dee

Nighthawk8820

Get back up and try again. Try as many times as it takes. Kittens are adorable and the fact it likes you, tells you maybe it sees something in you that you dont see right now.

AugustWest11

You are SO right; her son just met me the other day & adopted me as well; and she and the father says he goes to NO One lol so yea the kitten & her son have made me realize I am someone & I need to beat this . But you know its Bad when TSA tells you; eat the tick tacs & go sleep for a few hours cause your not going through and there is NO way your gettin on a plane

wpainterw

When you've fallen off a horse they say you should get right back in the saddle and give it another try. We're rooting for you. So is the kitten!

W.

AugustWest11

Thanx painter; just sitting here now wishing my cousin didn't have 3 kids & could talk now but the kitten is w\ me lol she won't leave my side :p

ImperfectlyMe

So sorry August for your struggle. Like the others have said got get back up and start over again. Glad you have that kitty. Animals have an almost super natural ability to heal your soul!

Nonsensical

You drank when you knew you shouldn't, and then you came back here and posted about it. I have seen those 2 chapters in every success story I've read on this forum.

Good Luck!

Living

I understand your feelings. I do not want to drink, but when that voice tells you how worthless you are (and you are not), it takes control. Best wishes and keep trying.

ersatzmatriarch

hey august...

thanks for sharing your story here. enjoy the kitten healing time, dust yourself off, and stay with us.

sending strength your way...

Marjoram

August - you are not alone. This stuff happens. But, remember, the key is to realize that you did it, and move on. You can't go through life beating yourself up over the past, you have to look forward and work on what you can do to make it better. We are altogether in this battle and have similar experiences. Find some peace in your time with your kitten. Animals have a wonderful way of calming us during rough times.

Goose1

August As I was told yesterday, "Welcome Home" I too relapsed 3 weeks ago and again this past Friday after 96 days being Sober. Like you, my choice is also to binge. See I forgot to come here and get advice of the many good people at SR. In other words I quit working my Sobriety. As I look at the post to the North of mine Marjoram reminds us not to beat ourselves up and to move on. That's all I ever do is beat myself up over my drinking and my past, that my past again becomes my present. I know we have to put a stop to this insanity. Dee advises its not a sprint. My feeling is you are a person of perseverance. We are here for a reason. Lets move on and make Sobriety our priority...

soberclover

I'm glad that you are realizing that you need to continue your recovery. I'm glad nothing too awful happened to you! I'm looking forward to your future posts!

Dollyangel17

Lot's have stumbled...try not to fret too much. Just start again...we are here for you.

Anna

Stick close to the kitten and stick close to SR.

We're here for you.

DisplacedGRITS

Fall down 9 times, get up 10. Keep getting up, August! You're only done for when you quit trying.

Zee

I have 2 dogs and 2 cats, they wouldn't come near me when I was drunk, I'm Dr Doolittle now... covered in fluff and drool I wouldn't have it any other way