mecanix

Right ,
That's it , i've had enough and i hand it over to life , fate , god , passing space aliens or whatever ... There is no way i can control or influence the erratic behaviour of certain people in my life at the moment , how this pan's out i shall wait and see but i am going to concentrate on making now good , tomorow or next week can wait untill then .

I refuse to let it get to me or upset my serenity

Right i'm going to get on with making my dinner and carry on as per a normal weekend , i do not wait for phones to ring , i do not pick them up to check they still work or phone my own mobile to check it's still working .

sanity rules ,

feel free to add your own official "it's outta my hands as from now post"

Bestwishes, M

least

The serenity prayer comes to mind.

Sasha4

Me too Mecanix.

I am too old to be checking my phone for a text or a missed call. I'm not 15 anymore.

My life is solid and stable and I can only control me.

What you cooking?
xx

mecanix

Thanks least & sasha ,

Lemony chicken and corainder /ciltrano .. it's my latest favorite meal ..

Accepting what i have control over and what i don't and knowing when to let it go emotionaly are things that have helped keep me sober , i think .

I wanted to see this one in print , might offer some insight to someone as well as act as an afirmation to myself

Bestwishes, M

GroundhogDay

Thanks for the dinner idea. I was just pondering what to make for dinner. I haven't made that in years.

Weasel1966

Hey M! I hope you are ok.... Not a post within character but I trust you getting this out is best!

I cannot control much in life but me and then only a seemingly small percentage... Lol

Great dinner idea.

I am on the road driving to the jersey shore to meet up with brother and family. Should be fun to see the ocean again. Been a while.

Be well my good friend!

Ken

Nighthawk8820

I had to learn to trust myself again, which even two years in, is still something I have to work on daily. I am not talking about trusting myself in regards to booze or drinking, but trusting myself that I can do anything in life I put my mind to. Trust that even though I feel lonely sometimes or bored, as I get more confident, there will be no limit to what I am capable. Trust that I can reach out and try new things, and be a success. I am learning to trust my body again, to trust that I wont freak out and panic when out shopping or when I have to do new things, because alcohol is no longer directly causing my anxiety. Its refreshing to be put in situations that used to bring on anxiety, cringe and wait for it to come, and it doesn't come. Im not a prisoner to anxiety or alcohol anymore, and I am learning to trust that Im really free now, and that as long as I dont drink, I wont end up back in that dark, dark prison I was in. Its out of my hands who will come along and try to interrupt my sobriety, but it is my hands how I choose to react to it. All we have is our actions.

mecanix

An hour after typing this a message arrives ,
I was able to respond from a place of calm, peace and hapiness .

Sobriety and the skills we learn dealing with life whilst maintaining sobriety are worthwile and for this alcoholic, i think, make me a better man .

Have a good sober saturday , M

Nonsensical

Well, my weekend took an unfortunate turn and there's something out of my hands now. Mrs. Non fell up some steps at a local store and broke her right foot in multiple places. She has a cast on now, and needs to follow up with an Orthopedic Podiatrist on Monday. So far she is horrible on crutches and has already fallen trying to go to fast. She hasn't yet figured out how to get into the bathroom by herself. She won't be able to drive for weeks or months.

Basically, I have just donned a caregiver role I was not anticipating. I will have some help from 2 adult children who are here for the summer, but I expect to bear the bulk of the burden. Fortunately my employer has a liberal sick leave policy, and I will be able to take as much time as necessary to assist.

OK, she's calling me. I need to run to the pharmacy. Dear Lord, please - no one give her a bell!

mecanix

It's cool you were sober to deal with this Non . It's great to be there for those we love the most .

Bestwishes, M

Fandy

Mecanix; I hope you are OK, I think you are handling whatever is aggravating exceptionaly well!

Nons; Mrs. Nons. is in a lot of pain for sure....I fell DOWN handicapped steps at my mother's last year almost the same time...tore my CFL tendon...no break but my "kankle" swelled to the size of my head daily by the time i got home...it took at least 3 months to heal....

regarding the bathroom.....maybe you can scamper to Home Depot and get a small bar to install on the wall to help her hold on while she gets up and down....less awful than the dreaded pottyhandles that go over the toilet with the built in elevated seat. showering will need some modifications too.

So Weasel is going to visit Little Miss Fandy (my daughter) who lives on one of the barrier Islands....she is always on her beach walking the dog.

soberclover

I'm glad that you posted the way you felt and handled the disappointment. It's a good reminder how we do have a choice in sobriety as far as how we will react. I'm still working on it! I hope you had a fabulous dinner!

Nonsensical

Very true. She's on Vicodin now, so she's OK as long as she is not moving. Waiting in the ER waiting room for the triage to happen, the move to the room, waiting for the doctor to show up, etc. when she was un-medicated was tough.