marley66

My husband has been on crack. Last night he wouldn't Baker a drug test..my doc was k4 so crack is something I know nothing about.I have been clean. More then 10 year's..why wouldn't he take a drug test to soothe my mind..?? Y the sugar cravings..We have only been maried5 months..I'm so confused..

Dee74

Hi Marley - welcome

I don't know why he wouldn't take a drug test, not for sure.
Why do you think?

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Anna

So, you asked him to take a drug test and he refused? Did he offer any explanation?

marley66

My mind says he's hiding something..I begged with tears in my eyes .then thru him out of my home..no trust..he's only been clean this tine 6 days..he's not changing..I dunno know..they have a way of making you feel so guilty and I feel sick over the whole thing..

soberclover

I'm sorry you are in this situation Good for you for being clean for 10 years. Before I got clean it was common for me to also drink alcohol when I was using. When I got sober I had wicked sugar cravings. Some times people don't want to do a drug test because it means you don't trust him. Or some people have reason to not want the insurance company or other people to know about the results? Do you have a NarAnon group in your area?

Dee74

I'm sorry Marley.
I'm glad you stuck to healthy boundaries tho.

I'm glad you found us too...there's a lot of support here.
Do check out our Family and Friends forums too

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Anna

Be sure to take care of yourself while you're going through this.

marley66

hey I know that I'm an idiot..he said he decided last week to be honest from now on and I should believe him..my trust in him is gone so how in J's name would I believe him..not the way I wanted my marriage to be..embarrassing ..

marley66

Thanks to everyone ..I attend. Celebrate. Recovery ..just Ben in denial with my relationship. As well as codependent.every thing gonna be OK..just making sure I am not tcrazy..trying to find some home resources and I did well coming here..thanks much

Dee74

You're definitely not an idiot - you show some great self insight

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