Yesterday changed my life! Please come read!!! GET HELP!!
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Yesterday changed my life! Please come read!!! GET HELP!!
Soberrecovery.com friends....greetings!!!! I first posted here 8 months ago in this thread (i haven't posted enough so they won't let me post the link to my original post back in September)
In that thread I created.....I was drunk, having a pity party and feeling sorry for myself, and though I talked a good game, and probably meant well, I did nothing about my problem. I have continued to drink heavily, nearly a pint every other night, for the last 8 months.
Finally, my wife got to the point where she was serious about leaving, calling friends to ask if she could stay with them and packing her things. I vowed to go to counseling/therapy, and I did.
Here I am, 3 weeks later, after seeing a psychiatrist. I told him everything. All the lies I've told over the years, all the ******** I told my wife so she'd leave me alone while I would sneak upstairs and chug a pint in 30 seconds, all the lies I told myself like "I made it through a week of work, its Friday, I deserve a drink."
For the first time after 6 years of being a functioning alcoholic, I'm finally getting help. I am currently on a medium dose of citolopram for depression, and Naltrexone for the alcohol cravings. I am only 20 days into my medication, and I can't begin to describe the freedom I feel. I am not craving alcohol at all, which is the first time I've been able to say that for 5-6 years.
I am so happy, my wife and I are doing much better, and most importantly, I feel like I have control of my life for the first time in ages. I cried tears of joy for days after the meds kicked in, feeling myself again.
PLEASE...if you're a member or a guest reading this, get help. feel free to PM me if you need to, I would love to talk to anybody through e-mail or even give a phone call if you need somebody to talk to. I've been a slave to the bottle for so long, and now that I'm finally liberated, i want to spread the love and support!!!!!
In that thread I created.....I was drunk, having a pity party and feeling sorry for myself, and though I talked a good game, and probably meant well, I did nothing about my problem. I have continued to drink heavily, nearly a pint every other night, for the last 8 months.
Finally, my wife got to the point where she was serious about leaving, calling friends to ask if she could stay with them and packing her things. I vowed to go to counseling/therapy, and I did.
Here I am, 3 weeks later, after seeing a psychiatrist. I told him everything. All the lies I've told over the years, all the ******** I told my wife so she'd leave me alone while I would sneak upstairs and chug a pint in 30 seconds, all the lies I told myself like "I made it through a week of work, its Friday, I deserve a drink."
For the first time after 6 years of being a functioning alcoholic, I'm finally getting help. I am currently on a medium dose of citolopram for depression, and Naltrexone for the alcohol cravings. I am only 20 days into my medication, and I can't begin to describe the freedom I feel. I am not craving alcohol at all, which is the first time I've been able to say that for 5-6 years.
I am so happy, my wife and I are doing much better, and most importantly, I feel like I have control of my life for the first time in ages. I cried tears of joy for days after the meds kicked in, feeling myself again.
PLEASE...if you're a member or a guest reading this, get help. feel free to PM me if you need to, I would love to talk to anybody through e-mail or even give a phone call if you need somebody to talk to. I've been a slave to the bottle for so long, and now that I'm finally liberated, i want to spread the love and support!!!!!
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Welcome to the road to Recovery!!!
Here is the thread you were talking about:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...new-forum.html
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing as we do care!
Love and hugs,
Here is the thread you were talking about:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...new-forum.html
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing as we do care!
Love and hugs,
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MTM82 - I came to the exact same realization when my outpatient treatment program insisted that I see a psychologist who referred me to a psychiatrist. There was nothing scary about the process, contrary to what I had built up in my mind as an excuse for not getting help in the past.
I sincerely believe that the majority of us are self medicating underlying anxiety/depression with alcohol and other drugs. Remove the anxiety/depression, and the compulsion to use is lifted. Congratulations!
FYI - when you come off of the citalopram, make sure you wean off under doctor supervision. The withdrawals can be nasty. All I will say is "brain zaps." Check it out.
I sincerely believe that the majority of us are self medicating underlying anxiety/depression with alcohol and other drugs. Remove the anxiety/depression, and the compulsion to use is lifted. Congratulations!
FYI - when you come off of the citalopram, make sure you wean off under doctor supervision. The withdrawals can be nasty. All I will say is "brain zaps." Check it out.
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Originally Posted by MTM82 
I am so happy, my wife and I are doing much better, and most importantly, I feel like I have control of my life for the first time in ages.
best news that I have heard all day
and I don't even know you
stay sober
and
for most
it get's even better
many blessings sent to the two of you
and I don't even know you
stay sober
and
for most
it get's even better
many blessings sent to the two of you
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Hey MTM I remember you we joined same time. I already had 3 months sober and have remained so. If I can do it you sure can. I can tell you it is really great I wouldn't give those last 8 months back for anything.
Best of luck
Best of luck
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